Diary of a Christ communicant,

post-2000

From 1967 until the end of the second millennium CE I practised the Service of Mystical Communion with Christ (SMCC), a ritual given from Spirit, under Christ authority, to Olga Park, for attunement with the Christ Mind.  This is described in detail in chapter 2 of SYFK.

Communing with the Christ Mind activates a progressive mind-awakening process. We are led, lovingly, caringly, tenderly, one step at a time, at a pace which is always comfortable for us, toward the Light of Eternal Truth. 

This blesses us and brings an awareness that we are on the Path Home.  Inner peace and joy replace fear and guilt, opening our eyes to the fact that Perfect Love is Who we really are; just like our Father Creator, in Whose likeness we are created.  As our awareness of that reality grows, with it comes a deep, all-encompassing longing to share, or extend, that Love, peace and joy to all who are willing to receive such priceless treasure.

Communing with Christ Mind (or Holy Spirit Mind; there is no difference, They are one in the Mind of God) calls for commitment, because ego-dominated minds fear the Light of Eternal Truth, due to perceptions of unworthiness resulting from erroneous belief that we are sinners; that the apparent gulf between us and God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit seems so great as to be unbridgeable.  This is an illusion which the practise of communing gradually dispels, to be replaced with a growing awareness that there is no separation between us and all our brothers in the Sonship of God or between God and us, His one, beloved Son.

Toward the end of the second millennium my own unfolding awareness had arrived at the place where I was comfortable communing with God — Papa — and Jesus, informally, spontaneously, at any moment, regardless of circumstances or events around me. 

Ultimately, although the formal, structured Service of Mystical Communion with Christ is a very beneficial instrument to help any sincere seeker after spiritual truth and reality, natural progression in awareness of and confidence in our ability to attune with the Mind of God and Christ takes us to a place where we no longer need the outer, formal structure.  This was so for Jesus and it is inevitable that it becomes so for us as we become like him (1 John. 3:2). 

The formal, structured ritual was no longer needful for the continuation of my journey Home to Papa; it had served its purpose perfectly and was now completed.

I went through a process of adjusting to this new, greater, expanded freedom; of allowing awareness and acceptance of Inner Guidance to become more widely and readily accessible in my mind; to enable a greater affinity with the Logos that is within us all, and allow Its greater expression, informal fluency and fluidity to carry me onward to a new awareness of At-One-ment.

During this transformational period, lasting several years (how slow we are to recognise and accept the true, radiant nature of our Being!), the Inner Voice became, to my awareness, much more spontaneous, relaxed, idiomatic, contemporary in style of speaking.  Communing became an any-time, any-moment, any-place event. 

It was an evolutionary process of recognising that this was possible, and indeed, the intention for us all as we gradually are able to let go of so much wrong learning that countless circuits of the carousel of birth and death have instilled into our subconscious mind.

I was becoming much more attuned to, or aligned with, the Source of the new awarenesses, which were often sudden realisations — or revelations — as much as spoken words.  This has been very confidence-building.

Jesus had told me on a number of occasions over the decades that his tutoring and the array of other mystical experiences — all under Christ authority — were merely preparation for that which lay ahead. 

What has emerged from these ‘post-2000’ communings is that the three measures of meal parable-in-action, or Great Rescue Programme (GRP), applies to our Awakening mind.  The first, or Abraham, measure is a God-seeking phase; the second, or Jesus measure, is a God-aware phase (but still dualistic); the third, or Kingdom measure is the fulfilment, or God-filled phase, during which the full awakening of our Mind to oneness is becoming completed.

At commencement of the second measure, or phase, of our awakening to eternal reality, Jesus, our older brother, who had already awakened fully, came to bring us the message of the awakening, or resurrecting, of the slumbering mind of the Sonship.  He promised he would stay with us until the end of time (Matt. 28:20) — the end of the third measure — to help us during the shift from the duality consciousness, or perception, to the singularity awareness and experience. 

His all-empowered help has been, and will continue to be, multifarious, including speaking, or communing, with all who are willing to open the door of their inner being in response to his knocking, so he could enter and ‘sup’, or engage in spiritual fellowship, with them, for the enlightening of their minds to the discernment of Eternal Reality and their integral part in It.

But crucial to this process in which he is helping us is our Awakening to the greater awareness — and acceptance — that we are in every way Jesus’ equal; only equality of Being can exist within the Sonship of God.  Conversely, only in our self-induced state of forgetfulness, in which we believe we are in — and limited by the illusion of — time and place, does this appear not to be so.  It is from this state of forgetfulness that he will help us lovingly, tenderly, unconditionally, with infinite patience, to awaken, for as long as we feel the need for his help. 

It is vital to our complete Awakening that we move beyond the state of mind in which we perceive dependence upon Jesus as our source of Light, spiritual Truth, salvation, to the remembrance, just as he did, that the Source of our Awakening, or salvation, is within us; our true Being: Christ-Self: ‘The Kingdom of God is within you’. (Luke. 17:21).

Jesus will lead us to the place of this awareness if we ask him, and allow him so to do.  He will also remain with us as we go on from there, because he is our brother, with whom we are one in the Sonship; because he Loves us with perfect Love and desires to be with us; for only in Oneness is he, and are we all, complete. 

This is, I now realise, why I was prompted to dub the second measure of meal ‘the Jesus measure’ and the third measure ‘the Kingdom measure’.  Jesus will lead us to the place of remembrance of, or awakening to, Self, within our heart and mind (which become spiritually conjoined in union and holy relationship.  Jesus was the leaven of, or for, the second measure of meal, and we, as Self — the Spirit of Truth within us — along with the Self we have known as Jesus, are the leaven of, or for, the third, final, completion measure, ‘till the whole is leavened’ (Matt. 13:33).

As the Holy Spirit says to Pamela Silberman in her book ‘Simply Being’:

Bless yourself through Self.  Bestow a remembrance of graceful freedom upon your presence in this experience.  See yourself as the Love You are and extend this through real eyes (true, singleness of vision) to all...  Guide yourself to your Self, Dear One, and then guide your Self with Me to God... Here you truly express your Self, as God created.  (My emphases.)

We can continue communing with Jesus for as long as we desire and are joyful in so doing, and he will continue joyfully to commune with us.  But now is the time — the Kingdom measure of meal — to joyfully commune with Papa God (just as Jesus joyfully communed with Him in the long ago), with and as, or from the Mind of Self, no longer from the false perception as (little, limited) self.  This quantum move will help us beyond measure in becoming, remembering, Who we are, restoring us to wholeness, holiness, completeness, perfection, Oneness, because that is Who we ARE.

With Love and endless blessings for inner peace and joy,

Brian Longhurst

This page is dedicated to sharing some of these post-2000 communings.  For Diary entries preceding 2000, click here.  The first I feel prompted to share took place in May 2010.  After that, entries are placed in order according to the date they were recorded. May you find it, and those that follow, reassuring, helpful, inspiring and uplifting.

A.M. May 23^rd 2010

You ask and I draw back the veil on your awareness.  You ask when you are ready to remember.  Do this – commune – in remembrance of Me, the Spirit of Truth, the Holy Breath, and I will gently, lovingly, breathe the Living Word of Truth back into your mind...

Beloved Holy Spirit, You made Yourself known to me in late October 1997 by saying  “I AM the Spirit of Truth” and after a slight pause, “the Holy Breath”.  And now I read in ‘Simply Being’ that you repeatedly emphasise awareness of breathing to Pamela Silberman.  How is our body’s breathing in oxygen connected to our oneness with You? 

Breathing in oxygen is what keeps you alive within the dream of being with a body.  Within the context of the dream, oxygen is, therefore, the breath of life.  At the level of Eternal Reality, I am the Holy Breath; the Breath of God.  When you sing the hymn ‘Breathe on me, Breath of God...’ you are inviting Me to visit with you and to remain with you, filling you with Life anew.

Life is only experienced when you have awareness of it, however limited that awareness may be.  The fragmented Sonship has awareness of life, or being, only at the illusory, or bodily level.  At that limited, restricted level, the breath of life appears as the air you breathe.  As remembrance of Who You are begins to return, so do you remember that your very Life, or Being, is sustained from the Source of All Life – Papa.  I am the Link with the Source for all the unhealed fragments, and so I am, until your full awakening, the Breath of Life; the Holy Breath.  When that awakening has been completed, remembrance will have been fully restored to all the fragments that they, as one, are the Truth and the Life.

“I am the way, the truth, and the life: no man cometh unto the Father, but by me.”  When Jesus spoke those words he spoke them as the Spirit of Truth in bodily-communicating form.  There is no difference between you, or any of the fragments, and Jesus, and Me.  The Whole is in all the parts.  Remember this and you are restored to wholeness.  By communing with Me you commune with Papa.  Communing is joining, or re-joining, or becoming, again, as one, or whole. 

Thank you, Beloved; this is massively enlightening.  You explain things so simply, they suddenly just fall into place, and it is then all so obvious, clear, logical.  It is as if I have then always known what You reveal.

You ask and I draw back the veil on your awareness.  You ask when you are ready to remember.  Do this – commune – in remembrance of Me, the Spirit of Truth, the Holy Breath, and I will gently, lovingly, breathe the Living Truth back into your mind, until all are – or is J – one, as ever was, and ever shall be. Amen.

P.M. Friday November 14^th 2008.

Go with your innermost, uppermost feelings.  All is well.  I am with you always, my beloved brother.

Jesus, my beloved brother in Christ…

Well spotted, Brian; for that is what we are, you and I ☺.

Well, I wanted to tell you how much I love and honour you for all that you are.  I have longed to commune with you – in some formal, yet informal, manner, ever since we stopped having our Service each week.

Well, that’s good, because I have longed to commune with you.  You now realise that this is possible without any of the outward symbols or trappings…

Yes, but they were/are very important, helpful as symbols, and to help focus and discipline, which I am not very good at.

Your strength is your commitment, and you have shown this, demonstrated it over the years of our walk together.

We have been doing that for over 40 years now…

Actually, much longer than that.  We have been together, you and I, for many of your acts and mine.

You’re suggesting…

Yes, we have been together, as dear friends, since before I was Jesus; before Abraham.  But that is of no import, other than its serviceability in preparing you for all that matters, which is NOW.

This really is destiny, isn’t it?

You were destined to be Brian, yes, with all that that entails.

It is my desire to commune in the silence, in the peace, in the Love and joy that our fellowship brings, every day.  I feel now is a moment for this to proceed.

Go with your innermost, uppermost feelings.  All is well.  I am with you always, my beloved brother.

A.M. Saturday November 15^th 2008.

I know your desire to return wholly to Me above all things.  To do this you must return wholly unto your Self; ‘Big Me’, as you have rightly observed. Jesus was wholly in Me because he was wholly Self – I AM. You are ‘I AM’ also. All the fragments of My Son also are, indivisibly ‘I AM’. 

Good morning, Papa. I greet You with my Love.

And I greet you with My Love, My son. Enter in, enter in; attune with Me with rejoicing, waking to the fullness of your glory and your Oneness in Me. You are in Me and I am within you; there is mutuality in our Love, which We extend to each other continually. In that extending is the ecstasy of My creation, which is you. Only in you is My ecstasy, My joy, My fulfilment, My completion. When you deny yourself, you deny Me. This is your only blasphemy.

Wow! Papa.  This is some revelation.  It changes my perception, brings me up short.

I know your desire to return wholly to Me above all things. To do this you must return wholly unto your Self; ‘Big Me’, as you have rightly observed. Jesus was wholly in Me because he was wholly Self – I AM. You are ‘I AM’ also. All the fragments of My Son also are, indivisibly, ‘I AM’. They say to themselves ‘I am Brian’, or ‘I am Theresa’, or ‘I am John’, or ‘I am Mary’. Each time they make such pronouncement, there is one word too many. For ‘I AM’ is Who they are. The rest is made up, illusion. Do you wish to be made up?

No, I don’t, Papa; I want to be real.

Keep on, then, reminding yourself, ‘Big Me’ is good because it focuses on your ‘otherness’, your ‘realness’, your ‘I AM-ness’. There is no other you than ‘Big Me’. You have no other name, no other being, no other identity. It is a distraction, a diversion away from the truth of Who you ARE.

But while I seem to be in, or with, a body, my brothers will see me as Brian…

Let that serve its purpose then, that you may use that illusion to bring your brothers to the truth of Who you are, that they may be re-minded of Who they all are. This illusory self can be restored to oneness, and thus disappear back into Me, forever. It has a purpose only in time, never in Eternity.

Welcome Home, My beloved. The banquet awaits.

Thank you, beloved Papa. You know how much I enjoy a feast!

P.M. Saturday November 15^th 2008.

As with all my brethren, Brian’s focus must be on forgiveness, for this brings release into remembrance, peace, freedom, enlightenment. 

The important thing, as well you now know, is not to get sidetracked, distracted, from your birth vision.  I confirmed our past, long association because you are ready and because it strengthens our bonds of Loving brotherhood.

It may seem the GRP is my operation, but it is co-operation.  I am the leader, because I am the first of the fragments to remember the wholeness.  But I have many loved ones, brothers, who work with me in oneness with the Breath, for the collapse of time, the awakening, the at-one-ment.  It is of no concern for ‘Brian’ to know of them all, for ‘Big Me’ knows them all.  As with all my brethren, Brian’s focus must be on forgiveness, for this brings release into remembrance, peace, freedom, enlightenment.  I assure you, you are in safe keeping; the end is truly known from the beginning, and all is well.  We are one in the Sonship, which is Christ.

Thank you for everything; you bring peace, comfort, assurance.  I Love you totally.

Your love and devotion are everything to me, for without them our joint efforts could not bear fruit.  Our time together like this is joy in our heart – for we are not just of one mind, but of one heart. 

You do not need to worry about a thing.  All is according to plan.

A.M. Sunday November 16^th 2008.

I extend My Love to you, always.  This is every moment, not just at times of your communing with Me.  You do not have to be consciously aware of this to receive it

Beloved Papa, I greet you with the Love and adoration of my heart and with thanksgiving for You and the Kingdom, and for our beloved brother Jesus, who I Love with all my being.

I receive the Love and joyous thanksgiving of your heart, My Son, and I extend My Love to you, always.  This is every moment, not just at times of your communing with Me.  You do not have to be consciously aware of this to receive it, for We are one always and there is no gap to be bridged before it reaches you.  Commune with me at any and all moments, Beloved, for I am always with you.  Simply place yourself within My presence by stepping into the Ray, the Shaft of Light that comes from Me to you.  (I was aware of a pillar of Light coming form Above, down to the ground, and that I could simply take a step into it if I was not already within it, due to some earthly distraction, and this will be my direct link to Papa).

We are One, forever; nothing can alter that.

Thank you, Papa, for Your gracious, all-encompassing, tender Love.

P.M. Sunday November 16^th 2008

I know how earnestly you desire to share with your brothers – all who will receive – that such intimate, personal, tender, uplifting fellowship with me and from me is available to them all. This is the very stuff of the Kingdom: Love, blessing, kinship, peace, goodwill, sharing. 

Jesus, beloved brother, friend and Lord, My heart has so much it yearns to express to you, and indeed, to all my brothers; but trying to formulate the words to express them, in some – any – order that might have some meaningfulness, is so difficult.  Gratitude toward you, for all that you have been for me over the decades seems just about uppermost.  Gratitude for your constancy; your unchangeableness; the sense of security, protection from Heaven-knows-what; the absolute, certain knowing that giving my life – the leasehold on it – entirely over to you, there was no need to plan my life, nothing to worry about, because we – you and I  – had decided on the plan for it ‘aforetime’ and even though I had ‘forgotten’ what that plan was, I knew you hadn’t, and you were immeasurably more able to outwork it than I was ....

As long as you co-operated with me!

Yes.  But you knew I would co-operate, so it was never in doubt J.

Okay.  But I knew because you were ready, even though, with your Earth-conscious mind you did not understand.  But as the plan unfolded, you realised your early experiences were way-markers for you, affirming your seeking, desiring heart and mind for spiritual truth.

Yes, they were massively helpful.  There have been untold occasions when I wondered if I was genuine in my desire for the Kingdom — the old ego part of me trying to put sugar in the fuel tank — but I knew the experiences* on the farm as a boy could not have happened if I was not ready in this act.

This was one of our aforetime pre-arranged signals.  It was a failsafe device; a ‘sleeper’ device.

You mean ‘sleeper’ as in the spy stories?  I don’t doubt that all your devices are failsafe.

Well, they’re not really mine; they are Papa’s.  I just use them because they work.

Jesus, my heart’s delight.  I Love you.  This is joy to my heart and soul, fellowshipping with you like this.  Thank you.  And I know such as this is always available.

It is joy also to me, beloved.  I know how earnestly you desire to share with your brothers — all who will receive — that such intimate, personal, tender, uplifting fellowship with me and from me is available to them all. This is the very stuff of the Kingdom: love, blessing, kinship, peace, goodwill, sharing.  This is why you are who you are, as Brian, and where you are.

Until the eagerly anticipated and awaited next time, beloved.

Until then.  Meanwhile, I am always with you.

* For details, please see SYFK, chapter 1.

A.M. Monday November 17^th 2008

Freedom from all that shackles Love is achieved by forgiving what has never restricted Love but only appears that way.  Forgiveness re-empowers you to see past illusions and they then disappear, My beloved.

Hello, Papa. 

Hello, My son. 

I Love You.  You know that, and I know You Love me.  That gives me peace of mind.  I Know You Love me.  I don’t just believe, or hope, I Know of a certainty beyond all doubt. 

Love is all there Is, so it is impossible that I could not Love you.  It is impossible that I could not Love My creation – ALL My creation. 

I feel ready to move up a level in communing, functioning from, awareness of, spiritual reality – my reality; to move beyond the bodily limitations. 

The way forward is by relinquishment of control from the lower to the higher; from ‘little me’ to Big Me.  

I am aware of this, but don’t know how to move up a gear in that process. 

That is because it is not a doing process but a being process.  ‘Doing’ is the ego taking control.  ‘Being’ is letting go into the care of Spirit.  Big Me, higher, true Self is.  Is-ness is able to transform littleness from limitation to fulfilment; from crawling to soaring.  This is a function of Spirit and requires no thought processes; merely an allowing.  I assure you, you have surrendered – mostly!☺ – to Big Me, and that transformational process is proceeding. 

You have left behind the crawling activity and are now in the chrysalis.  This requires no doing thoughts, only being thoughts.  These are not so much thoughts as remembrances.  Remembrances of Who you are, where you are.  There is nothing to do because it is already done.  All was completed at your creation, by Me.  Creation is the only ‘doing’ and that is accomplished. 

  All you can meaningfully ‘do’ is extend My creation – and you are My creation, My Son – and that is by Love.  Is loving ‘doing’?  How do you ‘do’ Love?  You cannot ‘do’ Love, you can only ‘be’ Love.  And Love can only Know Itself by extending Itself.  Love is all you need to remember and to be.  Freedom from all that shackles Love is achieved by forgiving what has never restricted Love but only appears that way.  Forgiveness re-empowers you to see past illusions and they then disappear, My beloved.

Thank you for reminding me, Papa.  Another step forward. 

Another step allowed; not taken, but given, and received. 

P.M. Monday November 17^th 2008

Love, trust and wisdom, my brother of the heart, are qualities worthy indeed of honour, for they are all attributes of the Son of God, who is like unto his Father.  You are the Son of God, co-equally with me, Brian, and so are these equally your attributes, in full measure also.

My beloved brother Jesus, last time, I spoke of gratitude to you for all that you are, as uppermost in my heart to speak about with you.  Love, trust and wisdom now come to my mind as aspects of you which I honour.

Love, trust and wisdom, my brother of the heart, are qualities worthy indeed of honour, for they are all attributes of the Son of God, who is like unto his Father.  You are the Son of God, co-equally with me, Brian, and so are these equally your attributes, in full measure also.  Does a momentary lapse of memory, already passed in an eye’s twinkling, render this truth an untruth?  I do assure you that any lack of awareness you may experience in your Earth-mind temporal perceptions makes no difference to the reality of Eternity.  If it were otherwise, the one-pointed desire of your heart for Truth, Love, peace, justice, fairness and your willingness to surrender your leasehold would not burn as a constant beacon and testimony to your true nature.

So I say to you, my beloved, all that you honour in me, I honour also in you.  Remember what Papa said to you, ‘When you deny yourself, you deny Me.  This is your only blasphemy.’

This I can never forget.  It shreds the flimsy hoardings of guilt, fear, shame, pretence at unworthiness erected against the Light of Truth by ego mind.

Very poetically put.  Good night, dear one.

A.M. Tuesday November18th 2008

Wrong thinking still tries to persuade you that there is nothing to say to Me and I have nothing to say to you, so communing is a waste of time; that if you try to commune with Me and nothing happens, this will ‘prove’ you are not able to commune with Me after all, so better not to try. 

Papa, I am not afraid of You, but I wonder if I am fearful of me, since I still sometimes feel anxious coming to You to commune.

My beloved, certainly you are correct about having no fear of Me, for as you know of a certainty, I am Love, peace, joy and gentleness.  However, you have read and are studying ACIM, which reminds you that you dream, in which all is turned upside down.  Thus Love is seen as fear, and hate is seen as love.  Even as I speak, can you observe that a battle rages in your mind between right thinking and seeing, and wrong thinking and perceiving.  Here, wrong thinking still tries to persuade you that there is nothing to say to Me and I have nothing to say to you, so communing is a waste of time; that if you try to commune with Me and nothing happens, this will ‘prove’ you are not able to commune with Me after all, so better not to try. 

However, right thinking causes you to feel unsatisfied with that explanation, so you feel this conflict, this unease, where part of you is determined to come to Me, and part feels it is going to prove unfruitful.  So I say to you: Have no concern whether anything is said!  Entering into oneness requires no exchange of words, which have no reality in Heaven, but are mere symbols of expressing your being.  If you come together with Me and I come together with you, We are together!  This makes us One.  Allow it to be so, for it is so in your heart, in your desire. 

Remember, commitment is your strength.  So be committed; not to the asylum, but to Me, to the Sonship with Jesus and all your other brethren – that the fragments may become wholeness again – and to the Kingdom, wherein the banquet of joyous, loving welcome awaits you.

Papa, my inexpressibly wonderful Home; as always, You still my fevered mind with Your precious peace.  My gratitude to You is also inexpressible, but at least I know You Know its magnitude because I know You feel it in my heart.

Yes, my son, I do feel it there; for therein is My home, My dwelling place in you, My gracious, loving host.

(I suddenly had an image of ego bolting out of the back door to escape from the true, perfect Love and peace of Papa.)  Alleluia!!  We are One, Papa!! 

Of course We are.  Otherwise is impossible. J

A.M Thursday 20^th November 2008

Papa is, right now, within you, within your beloved, within those who judge you and those you may judge.  Relinquish judgement and what is left?  Only Christ, the thought, the idea, of Papa

Papa and Jesus, I commune in conference with You both because we are all One in each other.

My son, this is wonderful, for there is no reason to exclude ‘Either of Us’ since Heaven is inclusive and only time and place presumes to exclude.

Jesus, I well remember your saying, ‘If you have seen me, you have seen the Father’.

Yes, beloved; this is truth, and it is true also of you and all the fragments, all the brethren, literally, when one chooses to look upon all things with Christ-vision and judge them not. It only appears otherwise when perceiving the outward exclusion, or apparent separation. Papa is, right now, within you, within your beloved, within those who judge you and those you may judge.  Relinquish judgement and what is left? Only Christ, the thought, the idea, of Papa; and as I have already explained in ACIM, an idea never leaves its Home, including when that idea is extended from its Source. This is the explanation of how, why, the Son is in the Father and the Father is in the Son.

And when I hear Jesus extending the truth of Eternity to me, I am also hearing Papa, because the Father and the Son are One.

My son, I rejoice in your awakening. We are well pleased. All Heaven rejoices with you and for you, as the Homecoming proceeds.

Thank you, Papa; thank you, Jesus.

And thanks be to you for being Our completion.

P.M. November 20^th 2008

I counsel you; as chaos spreads like wildfire in the dream – as the moment of waking draws near – breathe in the peace and stillness of Heaven, your haven. 

My Beloved, large problems for littleness are small concerns indeed for ‘Bigness’.  I counsel you; as chaos spreads like wildfire in the dream – as the moment of waking draws near – breathe in the peace and stillness of Heaven, your haven.  All is known, all is understood, all is forgiven, all is within the GRP.  Love and compassion for the fragments is complete and absolute.  Be still; place all within the all-sufficient care of Self, within Whom we are truly one.  Meet with me there, for here is joy abounding and unbounded.

Thank you, beloved Jesus.  I notice you have been addressing me as ‘Beloved’, not using my name, ‘Brian’.  Knowing you, this will have a meaningful purpose. . .

You observe well, as usual.  You and I, and all the brethren, as one, have but one true name: Christ.  Papa reminded you a day or so ago that we all are ‘I Am’, and we have no other identity; that all else is made up.  You told Him you did not wish to be made up, but real.  I am honouring your wish.  ‘Brian’ is of time and place.  Let those who perceive Brian say ‘Brian’.  Let those who see truly and eternally speak truly and eternally, Beloved.

Your answer is as I expected, my Brother.

Let us begin to think and function from within the KOH perspective.

A.M. November 21^st 2008

‘I Am’ is you and Me, as One.  Whatever else appears to be so, this is forever, unchangeably true.  By focusing on that, nothing else can affect your Being.

Good Morning, Papa.  I love You; I rejoice in You and in the Truth, the Reality of our Oneness.  I come to You to receive Your Peace; release from the grip of fear that is the hallmark of time and place, knowing that You are the Source of all Life, and that Life is peace, eternally.

Good Morning, My beloved Son.  Be still and know, in the stillness, that I Am God.  ‘I Am’ is you and Me, as One.  Whatever else appears to be so, this is forever, unchangeably true.  Jesus knew this, and was able to remain centred in this, enabling the cross to be to him the nothing that, in Eternal Truth, it is.

All events are within the GRP, and are, therefore, perfect.  Remember, all events are opportunity to transform what appears as adversity into fulfilment, caterpillars into butterflies.  Fear not; I Am with you always.

P.M. November 21^st 2008

You will always do well to focus on the principles, and not on the details.  Details distract, divert, destroy concentration, focus, on principles, thus engendering doubt and fear... Focusing on the Principles of Life of the Father (PLFs) will see you through every dark moment. 

Beloved Jesus, I feel as if I am growing, remembering, awakening from the dream; making real, palpable progress across a broad front.  But I seem to have this Achilles heel, of paralyzing fear about money; about financial security.  My time as Brian seems to have been beset by it, with opportunities lost or deprived; and now this shadow looms again, and I feel so un-anchored from the rock of faith.  It makes me feel like a phoney.

I know of a certainty all that has been my experience of you and Papa has been real beyond all doubt, and none of that has been shaken.  But this makes me feel cut-off; that the fear and doubt is so in my face, I can’t get in touch with the peace of Heaven.  I feel, suspect, this must be a legacy, karma, an unresolved issue from a previous act.

My Beloved, the details are not critical in a situation like you are experiencing; only the principles.  You will always do well to focus on the principles, and not on the details.  Details distract, divert, destroy concentration, focus, on principles, thus engendering doubt and fear.

You know that I know this is true.  And your words are strengthening, uplifting, restoring the inner peace, dissolving the doubt and fear.

This is the way it is with Papa’s creation.  My moment of doubt and fear was dispelled by re-focusing on Papa’s Love, peace, truth.  The certainty that the world is a dream restored my peace, and I became aware once more that this world is nothing and nowhere.

I choose for Big Me (Self) to be in charge, the centre, the focus of life, to be the decision-maker; not to allow the blind panic to take over.  Then the peace, the calm settles on me again.

Focusing on the Principles of Life of the Father (PLFs) will see you through every dark moment.  We don’t need to rehearse them here.  This is for ‘Big Me thinking’, for you to engage Big Me in moving through the process.  Bless you, Beloved.

Bless you, too, Jesus, beloved, and all my beloved brethren.

A.M. November 22^nd 2008

There is no rush to awaken.  Eagerness, yes; but rushing is of ego, and engenders frustration, anxiety, turmoil.  Remember, allow it to happen; do not attempt to rush it.  Rushing is ego attempting to re-establish control.

My Beloved Papa, I write the thoughts I direct to You because it helps me to focus them more effectively.  I love You, Papa.

My Beloved son, I Love you.  What is happening with you is a transforming process.  It is said that a person is of two minds about something when unsure about which way to go; which direction to take.

My Son, in the dream moment, took innumerable directions, called separation, and is perceived as separation from his Self as well as from Me.  This established a pattern of upside-down, or ‘wrong’ thinking; thinking that is opposite, or opposed to, Heaven, opposed to Oneness.

As the waking from the dream progresses, heavenly, kingdomly, right thinking becomes increasingly operational.  A phase is entered where the mind is oscillating between the two, and this can cause confusion, Self-doubt, uncertainty.

Your decision to commune each morning and evening is a wise choice because it is discipline for the mind, getting it focused on Me, Jesus, Self, the Kingdom.  You do well to focus thusly, and become gradually more accustomed to singleness of thinking, more comfortable.  It exercises the Christ Mind within you.

There is no rush to awaken.  Eagerness, yes; but rushing is of ego, and engenders frustration, anxiety, turmoil. I know this is part of your experience now.  Remember, allow it to happen; do not attempt to rush it.  Holy Spirit/Self knows all and is in charge of the process for Me; this is for your comfort and peace of mind.  Rushing is ego attempting to re-establish control.

So, be at peace, for peace is of the Kingdom; wellbeing is the result.

Thank You... thank You... thank You... Papa.

P.M. November 23^rd 2008

It is with some cause, Beloved, that you feel joy and upliftment, for you move ever closer to the Light, to remembrance of Who you really Are, which also is Christ.  This is freedom from judgement, fear, littleness.

Beloved Jesus,  I feel an inner joy and excitement in communing with you.  The wondrousness of knowing you, being your friend and brother in the Sonship is a peaceful, uplifting, reassuring thing to experience.  I am inspired by your saying you were once a man but are now fully identified with Christ..

It is with some cause, Beloved, that you feel joy and upliftment, for you move ever closer to the Light, to remembrance of Who you really Are, which also is Christ.  This is freedom from judgement, fear, littleness.

While I am not yet fully enlightened, remembering you, thinking of you as Jesus is something I can get a handle on.  I am not yet au fait with abstract reality.  I am hoping you can help me with that.

This is a highly pertinent point you raise.  Whatever serves each one, including you, let it serve.  If you relate, for the moment, to being Brian and me being Jesus, this is absolutely fine.  You have raised the point, which means it has risen to the surface of your mind.  In due course, greater understanding, inspiration, will come to you on this, and this will be a further step forward.

Allow it, and all new understanding, to come in response to your seeking without anxiety.  And if you are uncomfortable not being called Brian, I will happily continue to address you as Brian.  It is because your ultimate reality – and therefore, your true and only reality – is that Brian is not who you are, that I have refrained recently from using that name for you.  Remember, I have told you I was preparing my new name for you, for that is what you are, and will always be, asleep or awake.

Thank you, beloved Jesus; for beloved is what you are to me, too.

You see how we are all alike! J

A.M. November 24^th 2008

There is no evil, so there is nothing to fight.  There is only Love, and so acceptance is all that is required.  To receive is to become, once more, who you are, My Son.

Like Father, like Son; you can now see this is a PLF.  This is the Truth of My creation.  And you are My creation, and are unchangeably like Me.  You have said I Am creative, intelligent energy, motivated, or empowered by Love.  There is nothing else but Love, and Love engenders peace and joy.  What else could We need?  This is everything.  A dream of other is a dream of separation from Home, from Heaven, from Me, and even from your Self.

But the dream is over, and I Am calling you Home, to wakefulness, to Truth, to Love, peace and joy eternal.  And now, My beloved firstborn has given you the failsafe mechanism for the waking process, which is the reminder that you are at Home, have never left, have never separated.  Thus, you are not in a body, are not little, have done nothing; so what you believe you have done, and has been done to you, can never have been.

And so, forgiveness is easy, and is an affirmation that nothing has happened.  And I have placed within you My forgiveness*, which sufficeth for all.  Freely have you received, so you may also freely give, for the restoration to at-one-ment.

There is no evil, so there is nothing to fight.  There is only Love, and so acceptance is all that is required.  To receive is to become, once more, who you are, My Son.

I love You, Papa, I rejoice in Your Love, and my only desire is to continue extending Your Love to all who will receive it and join with me, and with Jesus, my beloved brother, in the oneness of the Sonship.

This is the plan for the GRP, and is all that is needed.

* For details, please see Diary entry dated September 13^th 1998

A.M. November 25^th 2008

‘Big Me’ — Self — is the Voice for God.  He will remind you of all you need to know and to remember, just as well as Papa and I can do.  ‘Big Me’, Self, is Who you really are.

My Beloved Brother, Jesus;  I would like – LOVE – to commune with you and Papa like this every morning and night, because I feel it is a worthwhile discipline for my mind.  Writing is, for me, more conducive to focusing, or attuning, or communing than just thinking, trying to order my thoughts.  I know ‘Big Me’ – Self – is close to me, inspiring new awareness each week.

My Beloved, of course disciplining, or training, the mind, the thought processes, is very important; but ask yourself why you feel the need to have these morning and night sessions with Papa and me.  Is this for your benefit, or are you trying to prove something for your brothers?  ‘Big Me’ – Self – is the Voice for God.  He will remind you of all you need to know and to remember, just as well as Papa and I can do.  ‘Big Me’, Self, is Who you really are.

You can write to Self – it is a type of ‘Dear Diary’ process – but with no pressure on you to prove anything.  The inspiration can, and will, kick-in at any and every opportune moment, seamlessly, whether you have pen and paper to hand or not. There is no need for formality.

I know what you say is true, and this is a big relief for me.  I will proceed as you suggest.  I love you and Papa, and you will always be included in my musings at any moment.  It is like you, my big brother, holding my hand as I become re-acquainted with, restored to, Self.  Thank you, as always.

A.M. November 26^th 2008

Striving is okay if you have time and place objectives, because time is finite, and is always running out.  But if you have Kingdomly objectives, then there is no deadline; for all is already accomplished, and all that is required is simply to attune with that reality.

Big Me, my real, higher, remembering Self;  I attune with ‘You’.  For You speak, inspire, for Papa, as does Jesus.  Each day, every moment, I desire, truly and earnestly, to be one with You; to journey further, closer, toward Home in Papa; to forgive truly, to relinquish judgement, to bless my brethren, to be inwardly peaceful; to be more aware of Heaven and less focused on the illusion of time and place.

So, be less anxious for these desires.  Striving drives away your goals and objectives.  Your eagerness is very well known, your one-pointedness is well-established.  But that is ‘being’.  Doing is ego stuff.  Being is Christ stuff.  All that is for you to ‘do’ will be brought to you; simply allow the Process.  You have heard this before, have you not?  So let it be, let it happen.

Striving is okay if you have time and place objectives, because time is finite, and is always running out.  If you have Kingdomly objectives, then there is no deadline; for all is already accomplished, and all that is required is simply to attune with that reality.

P.M. November 26^th 2008

Attack appeared to happen, but that is one of ego’s devices, tricks, pitfalls, illusions, to distract us from the Truth of Eternity: that we are all innocent; eternally, lovingly, joyfully one in the Sonship of Papa.

Hello, Self, ‘Big Me’; reporting in for attunement, opening up for inspiration, new awareness and enlightenment.  Just kidding; I said it all this morning.

I feel acutely aware of the focal point of our lives being forgiveness and that is centred in .....*.  I am now at the place of full realisation that she has given us this gift of inestimable value, without which true forgiveness would only be theoretical for Theresa and me.

So here, I have this gift, yet at the same time it is giving me the opportunity to see past the apparent gift (attack) to see the real gift, which is recognition — thanks to Jesus, my beloved brother, in ACIM  — that none of this actually happened.  Attack appeared to happen, but that is one of ego’s devices, tricks, pitfalls, illusions, to distract us from the Truth of Eternity: that we are all innocent; eternally, lovingly, joyfully one in the Sonship of Papa.

The gift is an opportunity to see past the distraction.  This has now happened.  We have moved through the forgiveness process and now see ..... as having given us this selfless gift, that we may all be released back into innocence, and be each other’s saviour.  I now am free to truly bless her from my heart, and give, extend, BLASER  my blessing and love for her, and for our restoration to oneness.

This covers it, though fewer words could have done it!  Just kidding J

Well, You have used fewer words than usual, but at least it was enough to let me know I wasn’t speaking to myself, that You were listening; and that is encouraging.  So, my gratitude is as great as ever, no kidding J

* Name excluded for confidentiality reasons.

P.M. November 27^th 2008

Self knows rapid answers are not always ‘best’, and spoken answers are not always the best way to provide enlightenment, wisdom, understanding, certainty of knowing.  Self knows that commitment, patience, faith, trust are qualities that open doors to the Kingdom of Heaven that persona identity has closed.

How can I think more actively, extensively, comprehensively in terms of Self being ‘me’, rather than ‘You’, and thus moving more purposefully from duality to singularity thinking, seeing, awareness?

Over to ‘Big Me’; I give thanks for Self, I AM that I AM.  I seek illumination, inspiration, enlightenment from and in Self, within.

I think of, or observe pB (persona Brian), ‘little’, earth-mind me, focusing on the perceptions and limitations therein, and then I invite into that ‘mind-room’ — which is my ‘mind-space’ — Self.   It is as if I am opening a door into another part of that space — which I have, wittingly or unwittingly, been keeping shut — in which I am aware that Big Me, Self, dwells.

Self is the ‘perfect gentleman’ part of my mind, Who would never barge in, uninvited or unwanted, into my thinking processes; is always peaceful, calm, loving, gentle, fun; a totally welcome, considerate, caring, beneficent guest.  This is rather foolish on my part, to be ignoring the part of my mind that Knows all things, with Which/to Whom I have access at all times, yet have been so frequently ignoring.

So now, I consciously, deliberately, invite Big Me, Self (not third-person Him; first-person, only-person Big Me) in.  I remind myself that Big Me has none of pB’s limitations, so when pB asks a question, or seeks an answer, Self is not thusly restricted.  Self knows rapid answers are not always ‘best’, and spoken answers are not always the best way to provide enlightenment, wisdom, understanding, certainty of Knowing.  Self knows that commitment, patience, faith, trust are qualities that open doors to the Kingdom of Heaven that persona identity has closed.

Self knows that if pB is seeking enlightenment, illumination on any matter that will assist his awakening to eternal reality, and then, in faith, pB leaves that enquiry with Self, this can provide excellent opportunity for illumination, understanding, Knowing to be brought to his awareness, his remembrance, from the Source within.

P.M. November 28^th 2008

Littleness (ego) can be thrown into a state of confusion, panic, bewilderment by Self coming to ‘centre stage’.  This is because it feels threatened by loss of control; loss of identity.  Simply allow this to happen.  Do not struggle, resist, fight or engage with this, for this is getting sucked back into the illusion.

I open the door to the ‘upper layer’ of my mind, releasing Self into my living space, my discernment, my thought processes.  By doing this it focuses my awareness on the truth, the fact that I AM love, gentleness, peace, radiant, all-encompassing forgiveness and acceptance; that all that appears to be around me is illusion. 

I choose today to look upon all things, people, events with my true, Christ vision and judge them not, but give each one a miracle of Love instead.  And I invite Self to be actively involved with, in control of, all decision-making activity today, because Self knows all things, and does not judge anything.  Then I simply wait for the Self part of my mind to take the helm, by giving thanks to Papa for the all-encompassing Help and Comfort of Self.

Littleness (ego) can be thrown into a state of confusion, panic, bewilderment by Self coming to ‘centre stage’.  This is because it feels threatened by loss of control; loss of identity.  Simply allow this to happen.  Do not struggle, resist, fight or engage with this, for this is getting sucked back into the illusion.

Merely observe, objectively, as a bystander, that this is happening.  There will be occasions when it may be helpful for you to call out to Self, in your mind, with words like, ‘Thank You, Self, for being with me, for hearing my call, and always coming to my rescue.  The very knowledge that You are always there for me is calming and comforting.  I place myself in Your loving, understanding, non-judgemental, forgiving, all-knowing care.’

This is reverting to a form of duality, but that is okay, because you are not yet free from duality, but are moving toward non-duality — singularity — one step at a time.

I had been having negative thoughts about whether writing messages of encouragement were of any benefit and uplift to any of those to whom they are sent, as progress can sometimes (well, mostly!) seem almost undetectable.  (Now, two years on, the amount of benefit on which positive feedback has been accruing has been rewarding beyond description!). Immediately, Self lovingly admonished me in characteristic manner:

Brian’s job, his entire purpose, is to deliver the message, not to try to interpret the response.  Brian is doing this; he is fulfilling his commitment, his desire, faithfully, diligently.  He is open to receiving inspiration, enlightenment, illumination, and extending what he is freely given to his brethren, unencumbered.  His link-up with Self is progressing according to plan [Alleluia!].  He is a highly serviceable instrument, so that, having delivered the goods with love, peace, joy and blessing, Self, Who is connected to, one with, all the fragments, can work with the recipients from their own within, loosening the fetters, weakening the chains, opening a chink in the shutters.

A.M.  December 13^th 2008

I do not have to struggle, strive, fight for release from the self-imposed, illusory limitations of time and place, because freedom is already mine, with me, and always has been.  There is nothing to do but simply allow that reality to enfold me, well up, be-come, unfold, outflow from within me.

Increasingly the awareness, remembrance, realisation is with me that ‘Big Me’ is who I am.  It is a realisation that I do not have to struggle, strive, fight for release from the self-imposed, illusory limitations of time and place, because freedom is already mine, with me, and always has been.  There is nothing to do but simply allow that reality to enfold me, up-well, be-come, unfold, outflow from within me.  To remember that, it is necessary to remind myself of Self being who I am.  This is mind retraining.  With resolute, steadfast commitment to the practice of mind retraining comes wholeness/holiness, the dispelling of fear, ego/littleness; the emergence of inner peace and remembrance of who I am; my one and only, true Identity. Just like Jesus! ☺

Keep on keeping on, in sure and certain knowing that this is who I am – not just wish or desire to be.  Constant reminders, daily, hourly, that there are no limitations, since all there is is already mine, because Papa has given it to me at my creation, will restore me to that certainty of knowing.  He has never taken it from me.  I dreamt I threw it away, but that was never more than a dream, and now, with the unfailing help of my beloved brother Jesus, I am waking from the dream, walking with him in joyous fellowship, back to Papa, knowing beyond all doubt that He is our Home.

So I say to you, beloved Papa, “I am Your beloved Son.  All that is Yours You have given me, and it has always been, and still now is and always will be, my rightful inheritance.  All appearances to the contrary are simply that – appearances; nothing.  I choose now to accept and espouse everything once more and rejoice in the fullness of Your true creation, which has no end, and is with me always.  For all that I give thanks eternally and rest in You, now.”

A.M. December 14^th 2008

 Jesus used his persona as a communication device to help others awaken from the dream, but his Jesus persona was completely in at-onement with Self; the Holy Spirit.  That, then, can become possible — the objective — for the rest of us. 

I now realise that ‘Big Me’ is completely my true Self, the only real me, and that little me is nothing; a dream, an illusion.  So in a sense, thinking in terms of my true Self as ‘Big Me’, implies there must be a little me, and this is, in a subtle way, perpetuating the duality of separation.  I had thought that changing the term ‘Big Me’ to ‘Real Me’ would correct this, but now realise that still allows for ‘unreal me’.  That is a step in the right direction, but not yet all the way, to correcting, dispelling, the perception of the illusory me; the persona.  Papa counsels me to use that persona – ‘Brian’ – as a communication device to help others (and thus myself also) awaken from the dream.

Jesus did that, but his Jesus persona was completely in at-onement with Self; the Holy Spirit and Papa.  That, then, can become possible – the objective – for the rest of us.  Then, also like him, that ‘unified’, or ‘re-unified’, persona will have Kingdom of Heaven awareness fully, all the time.  Miracles will be natural, an outflowing radiance of whole/holy being toward all other living beings as a result of wholeness/holiness, love, BLASERing.  Miracles are a state of creativeness in that they restore to the oneness of being – wholeness/holiness – that is the true estate of all life; oneness in resonance with Papa, the Universal Life Force; the Source of all Being.  Miracles, Jesus tells us in ACIM, don’t do anything; they undo false perceptions, thus dispelling the blocks, or obstacles we have placed before wholeness.

Then, when the Kingdomly objectives of that re-unified persona/being/Self have been fulfilled, it will be subsumed back into the oneness of the Sonship, back into Papa, and cease to have a manifest presence in time and place.  At present the persona is still perceiving itself as individual, separate, alone, with others ‘out there’.  That is the illusion.  But mind re-training, by mind-to-Mind communing (mtMc) with Big Me, our Real Self, the Spirit of Truth, the Holy Spirit, the Holy Breath, gradually alters the perspective until self becomes ever more identified with Real Self, Big Me, and little, persona self becomes less and less the focal point of awareness, until persona is seen simply as a tool, and not the real Being.

A.M. December 15th 2008

We have but one Identity, not many.  Jesus gives us a clue to this by his life, his example, so that we can emulate that example and become like him.  That is why he came: to show us that example, that way of true being, of rightful living. 

 We have but one Identity, not many.  Jesus gives us a clue to this by his life, his example, so that we can emulate that example and become like him (1 Jn. 3:2).  That is why he came: to show us that example, that way of true being, of rightful living.  It is not hard, in spite of what we see in this dream world around us, which is nothing more than a projection from the ego-dominated part of our mind.  As soon as we choose to stop projecting, that image will cease to exist – like turning off the projector in the cinema – and we will waken to the reality that we are Home.  It is not hard because it is simply Love, like our Creator, Whom we are like because He created us like Himself.  All that is required is for us to remember that we are innocent, pure, whole (holy); that the ‘lie of satan’ – that we are unworthy sinners, full of guilt and therefore fearful of God’s judgement and vengeance upon us  – is ego’s script to keep us chained to littleness in time and place.

A.M. December 16^th 2008

When we get our thoughts in turmoil, it is based on past memories and projecting them into the future (but there is no past or future, only Now, the eternal moment; the Holy Instant) fearing the worst and hoping for the best.  Hardly a joy-inducing stance.  I choose to focus my mind in Self, in Christ, in God, my true and only Being, and my one reality, in the Eternity of Heaven, here and Now, because there is only Now.

Ego is frantic at the prospect of our escape from its clutches.  It exists only in that split-off part of our mind, where time and place only exists also, and neither has any existence outside that.  Ego exists only in the past, where judgement comes from.  In the eternal moment of NOW is no judgement, and no ego.

When we get our thoughts in turmoil, it is based on past memories and projecting them into the future (but there is no past or future; only Now, the eternal moment; the Holy Instant) fearing the worst and hoping for the best.  Hardly a joy-inducing stance.  I choose to focus my mind in Papa and in Self  – Christ,  my true and only Being and my one reality – in the Eternity of Heaven, here and Now, because there is only Now.

This does not entail hope or fear, but the certainty of Love, joy, peace; of having all my inheritance from Papa, just as the example shown by Jesus, our template for the truth of our Being.

A.M. December 17^th 2008

Striving, doing, forcing empowers ego.  Remove that empowerment by resting in the certainty that all is already complete.  The gate will then swing open of its own accord, and striving will then be recognised as the energy that kept it shut

I realise that this priceless opportunity to commune – join my mind – with Self cannot but be used for correcting misperceptions and dispelling ego.  I observe persona Brian’s impatience, irritation with slowness in others to see the emerging picture of reality as he becomes aware of it, and that Jesus was and is infinitely patient with him in his slowness.  I therefore ask and give thanks for Help in correcting this impatience, and replacing it with gentle love, kindness, understanding, tolerance and forgiveness – of all my brothers and myself.

Ask and ye shall receive, Seek and ye shall find, Knock and it shall be opened unto you.  Having Asked, Sought, Knocked, leave all in the hands of One Who is able to provide what is requested, knowing that the ASKing is the mechanism that opens the gate, to permit entry.  Remember, doing, striving, making (happen) is ego’s domain.  The Son of God already has everything, and needs no striving.  How can one strive for what is already with one? 

Striving, doing, forcing empowers ego.  Remove that empowerment by resting in the certainty that all is already complete.  The gate will then swing open of its own accord, and striving will then be recognised as the energy that kept it shut, and will then cease to exert any further influence, or limitations, upon your endeavours, aspirations and empowerment.  Simply observe.

A.M. December 18^th 2008

When Jesus said ‘I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; no man cometh to the Father except by me’, he was speaking as Self, Christ... Jesus was the manifestation of Self; wholly one with It/Him.  To apply those words to Jesus the man, is a form of idolatry because it is attaching importance to an image, a form. 

Ultimately, I am, we are, Papa’s Son.  How could he be my – our – Papa if it were not so?  He is waiting, with infinite patience – yet eagerly – for my, our, return to Him.  Right now I am ‘coming to myself’, thanks to Jesus, and ‘the journey without distance’ is underway. ‘Coming to myself’ should be, was intended by Jesus to be, ‘Coming to my Self’.  The implications of this are so much more meaningful.  Truly, I am coming to my Self; Big Self; Real Self, Whole Self now, as are we all, and it is this which makes the journey real, possible, true.

When Jesus said ‘I am the Way, the Truth and the Life; no man cometh to the Father except by me’, he was speaking as Self, Christ; and the words are absolutely true in that sense.  Jesus was the manifestation of Self; wholly one with It/Him.  To apply those words to Jesus the man, is a form of idolatry because it is attaching importance to an image, a form.  But, seeing past the form to the content, the real source of the words, we can realise that the Source is Big Me, Big Self, not Big someone else, someone outside me, thus perpetuating duality.

Duality is split, or double vision – our bodily sight – and comes about as a result of perceiving images outside our Self.  Of true sight, or spiritual vision, Jesus says, ‘If your eye (vision) is single, your whole body (being) shall be full of light’, or enlightenment.  He saw past the form, or images, of his fellows, past the apparent frailties of littleness, of ego-driven contrariness, grievances, judgementalism, to the real Self within each fragment of the Sonship.  

He refused to judge those appearances because he saw past them to the true Self within them all.  He knew who they – we – all really were/are: One, with him.  When we choose to stop perceiving images outside our Self we will bring an end to time and place, the illusion of the separation consciousness.  Jesus did it two-thousand years ago, and thus, was whole, i.e. holy.  And the things he did, we will do also, and greater things, if only we can believe; if only we choose to attune our vision beyond the flawed, double vision of our bodily sight to the perfect, single vision of our true, eternal, perfect, innocent (guiltless) Self.

Jesus does not ask that this be accomplished by our little self, but only that it be our choice. When it is unequivocally our choice Holy Spirit-Self will accomplish it for us.

A.M. December 19^th 2008

As you know, when We have something wondrous, We just can’t help wanting to share it, extend it, spread it around.  That’s the nature of abundance; it just wants to abound.

Papa, I rejoice in US.

Oh, and so do I!

You are just an old softy J

Like Father, like Son.  Good, eh?  I hope you will tell everyone the truth about Me.  I have had such a bad rap and this is causing My beloveds to fear Me.

Papa, You know better than any how strong is the desire in my heart and mind to share with all my brothers in the Sonship the indescribable joy of Your Love, Your Being, Your perfection, Your gentle, tender, caring ways.

Wonderful!!  Of course I knew, but I just wanted to give you the opportunity to express it.  As you know, when We have something wondrous, We just can’t help wanting to share it, extend it, spread it around.  That’s the nature of abundance; it just wants to abound.

So, I take it You are happy about HTG*; for sharing, extending the truth that the awareness of You and Your Kingdom is unfolding for me in this act.

Freely have you received; freely give.  How could I stop you when your heart is bursting with it?  Just let it all flow out, as you feel moved by the Spirit.

* The Honest2Goodness website.

A.M. December 20^th 2008

We can look down upon our body from above and say, “That is not who I am.  I am Papa’s beloved Son, just as He created me — like Himself; free, limitless, eternal, guiltless; perfect Love.  Would He have placed me inside this illusory pile of dust, to start out entirely in forgetfulness, separate, to grow old, feeble and die?”

Seeing ourselves as bodies is like saying “The sun is coming up”.  It is an egocentric misperception.  We are looking at the situation from entirely the wrong perspective.

We are uncontainable; limitless.  Time and place, and all that appears in it – and therefore, perishable, frail bodies – are all feeble, flawed attempts to contain and limit us.  As soon as we realise that, the lid comes off the container; the genie escapes from the bottle; we begin to realise that there are no limitations or constraints.  We start to see, with true vision, Who we really Are. 

We can look down upon our body from above and say, “That is not who I am.  I am Papa’s beloved Son, just as He created me – like Himself; free, limitless, eternal, guiltless; perfect Love.  Would He have placed me inside this illusory pile of dust, to start out entirely in forgetfulness, separate, to grow old, feeble and die?”

I am created like Him, yet there is nothing like Him in that, so it is not possible that He could have placed me there.  There can only be one other who could have done that, and that is me.  I must have done this to myself in a moment of madness.  If I did this to me, it must be possible to undo it.  In order for that to happen I must be willing to see myself as I truly am, not from this upside-down, back-to-front perspective.

All the while I am doing that it will appear as if that is who I am, when now I can begin to glimpse that it is not so at all.  I must simply start to adjust my perspective and begin to look upon my Self from my Self, with my own, true vision – Christ Vision; not with senses that believe, and therefore perceive, what is really not actually there at all!

We have been misperceiving for so long that we have now convinced ourself that we are something we are not.  Now it will seem to take some time for us to fully adjust our vision back to our true perspective.  But since there is only ‘now’, that is the best moment to begin the re-adjustment.

A.M. December 21^st 2008

I thought I had become lost in the darkness and confusion of time and place because it is the opposite of what I really know; but one was born into the darkness to show us the Light, to be the Light and remind us that we also are that Light.

As I begin – or continue – to awaken and move into the Light of remembrance of Who I Am, so does it become easier and yet easier to discern and accept the truth of my real Self as Papa’s creation.  In the darkness of the Earth- or ego-consciousness it is difficult to see clearly; easy to believe in phantasms.

In the gloom, things appear complicated, convoluted and we wander about, lost in a maze and in amazement.  Whenever we think we have found the way out, the way forward, another obstacle blocks the way.  The problem arises because we think we have to find our way out on our own, unaided by a Guide Who truly knows the way Home.  Relinquishing control over the direction of our journey to such a Guide requires oh, such trust.

Time and place are so full of false guides, apparitions, blind alleys, and we have been let down, deceived by piecrust promises – easily made, easily broken – that it is hard to hand-over control of our life to another; especially when that Guide begins to lead us into what appears to us to be uncharted territory.  We are asked to take each step in blind faith; something the ego cannot do.  Yet when each step does not end in disaster, and we find we have taken many steps – and even though disaster appears to loom all around us, still we have somehow survived, even if sometimes it seems to be only by the skin of our teeth – we can gradually find that our trust has been justified, so it grows our faith.

This brings us a newfound confidence in this Guide.  We have believed he was another traveller, accompanying us on the path, and His very presence engenders peace of mind.  We may have no idea where we are going, but he certainly does.  Eventually we find that he was not another person, because ultimately there is only one of us, but he is the Way, the Truth and the Life, and what was really being shown to us is that we are one and the same.  And there is no other Way than our Self, our Guide within, because I and my Father are One.

I thought I had become lost in the darkness and confusion of time and place because it is the opposite of what I really know; but one was born into the darkness to show us the Light, to be the Light, and remind us that we also are that Light.  

P.M. December 22^nd 2008

The awakening from little self – limited, finite, mortal etc. – will be well served by focusing steadfastly on the awareness, the truth, that little is neither who, not what you are.

Big Me, Whole Self, I Am;  Thank You for shining the Light of eternal truth into my mind, to clarify the confusion of the dream of time and place.

The real confusion issue here is duality ‘versus’ non-duality.  Duality is the separation consciousness of ego-mind, which perceives more than one, or opposites – good/evil, hot/cold, light/dark, big/small, male/female, up/down, here/there...  Non-duality is the knowingness of eternity, which is Christ- (or God-) Mind, Truth, Perfect Love.

In duality there appears to be time and place (t&p) – the antithesis of Eternity, or Heaven, which is always here, always now; never there, never past or future.  T&p is therefore also spiritual darkness; consciousness as distinct from knowledge; perception as distinct from vision.  Consciousness is of what ego believes to be ‘there’ but because it is in darkness, cannot know; so split mind perceives it as being there, as distinct from seeing, with true vision.  While split mind remains asleep, dreaming of separation, that dream consciousness causes (mis)perception.  When Awakening takes place, then vision is restored, and thus Knowledge, with it.  

Because littleness, or persona, or individuality, or separation consciousness, or fragmentation has caused belief in, and thus restriction to, t&p consciousness, going from that perception to ultimate reality is a tall order, or big stretch.  So the Spirit of Truth, Self, Holy Spirit corrects thinking by stages.  The awakening from little self – limited, finite, mortal etc. – will be well served by focusing steadfastly on the awareness, the truth, that little is neither who, nor what you are.

That will prepare separated mind to take a very, very big step toward correcting its thinking from wrong to right, to dispelling the misperception of there being a little me.  This applies to all comparative terms, including Real Self, because that implies there must be an unreal self.

Self, with an initial capital, and I Am do not imply alternatives, so are non-dualistic.  They are thus terms applicable to the one Son of the Father Creator.  However, because he still appears to be in t&p, with unresolved issues, karmic entanglements, true forgiveness to outwork, the truth of who he really is to waken to, he still appears to be functioning, illusorily speaking, from the little self perspective.

Separate, persona perception has to become, one step at a time, transformed, corrected to seeing self as Self, or I Am, not perceiving limited self.  Meanwhile, it is not a sin to think and speak of Jesus as a separate, though entirely trustworthy and fully God/Christ-empowered being/brother, who can and will help when asked; and because there is, for the moment, comfort in that, similarly, allow being comfortable with the idea of Higher Self, or Big Me if it serves for a span.  It is a phase, or stepping stone on the journey back to full wakefulness. 

So, for example, it enables us to engage with Self as we engage with Jesus, and can, in our apparent state of being little self, ask Big Self for guidance, thank Him (You) for being always with us.  In due course, the apparent twoness will become oneness.  

Precisely.  Be comfortable with this and allow the process to proceed, unaided – or discombobulated – by little self J.

P.M. December 25^th 2008

You are loved beyond imagining; watched over, cared for, inspired, enlightened, in response to your seeking.  All is perfection, just as it can only be with Papa’s creation.  All is, therefore, entirely well.  We are, forever, ONE.

Jesus, my Beloved, Happy Birthday!  I feel sure such is of little, if any, consequence to you, in the context that all this is but a dream of madness.

Beloved, of course this is correct.  But we also look at things from within the perspective of the fragments.  Until the re-joining, they see all this as real, and today, insane as much of it has become, still causes my little ones to pause and reflect; so it, like Easter, does engender a change of focus, even if, for many, only for a day.

I know your thoughts, and the sincerity of your Love for me, and that is joy and Love in my heart.  Be assured that there are others of my brethren whose hearts and minds are of like Love, sincerity and commitment.  This is an invaluable state, into which Light of Spiritual Discernment can most readily be welcomed and received, even if it requires gentle administration in order to cause no shock – or at least, to minimise its impact.

You are just such a case in point, where, deep as was your devotion and commitment to me and the Kingdom – and you were gung-ho for blundering forward as a result J – you now can see the essential nature of the one step at a time approach in order to maintain peace, harmony and balance in your within.  Further, as you are aware, there is no rush; for time is an illusion, and all is already accomplished.

This is why you never see me anxious.  The appointed hour of fulfilment is set, and not only can it not be altered, there is no purpose to be served by altering it.  Within – during – that allotted period of leavening will rise many brothers to fullness of remembrance.  That is joy in Heaven of which the dream has no awareness.  This contributes exponentially to the collapse of time, so that all is complete by the end of the Age.  It is a logarithmic process, not an arithmetic one, as you are already aware.

Now let us join hearts in precious love and joy – for that is all that matters – and give thanks together to Papa, for His Perfect Being, founded in Universal, unconditional Love.  What say you?

Beloved, I rejoice that you – Papa’s Anointed Messenger – are aware of the unspeakable Love for you that overrides all else in my heart and mind.  That you have led me so lovingly, gently, patiently, trust-inducingly over the unfolding that has brought me to this place, is the foundation of my act as Brian.  It provides absolute comfort as each moment unfolds, regardless of what it may bring.  To say I Love you totally, with all my being, is inadequate in expressing this.

As you know, my heart sings the New Song, rejoicing in you, my beloved teacher, brother and friend.  For all this I gladly join with you in giving thanks to Papa. 

Go forth, sharing, extending that which you have received and continue to receive, freely – unreservedly and unrestrictedly.  You are Loved beyond imagining; watched over, cared for, inspired, enlightened, in response to your seeking.  All is perfection, just as it can only be with Papa’s creation.  All is, therefore, entirely well.  We are, forever, ONE.

In unison: Alleluia! /Alleluia!

P.M. December 26^th 2008

As we move toward the Awakening, so will the background black noise of fear disperse and be replaced with the white noise of Heaven’s joy until it occupies all our attention, and nothing of the world of illusions will catch or hold our interest or attention. 

My communing with Jesus yesterday (see Diary dated December 25^th 2008) has me filled with a deep inner joy.  It is, like ‘white noise’, the background of a hi-fi sound system, all-pervasive.  I know intuitively, as a remembrance of Heaven, that this is a taste of the joy, peace and Love that we are in our true state as Papa’s beloved Son. 

As we move toward the Awakening, so will the background black noise of fear disperse and be replaced with the white noise of Heaven’s joy until it occupies all our attention, and nothing of the world of illusions will catch or hold our interest or attention.  Is this not sufficient to draw us toward one-pointed, steadfast commitment to, and focus upon, the GRP and the Kingdom? 

Even if we don’t understand – which in our nascent stage of remembrance we do not – either what is entailed or the magnificence, the grandeur, the ecstasy beyond imagining, of our goal, we can readily surmise that its promise is immeasurably more desirable than this dream of falsehood and death.  Let us not be lulled into the misperception that all this will be ours when we lay aside our temporal vehicle, so all we have to do here is be good and follow a flawed doctrine.  That will but bring us a return ticket to time and place; another circuit of the carousel. 

The Kingdom of Heaven is here, now, in our midst and waiting is a ploy of the enemy – ego.  The keys to the Kingdom are true forgiveness, unconditional Love, compassion, trust, relinquishing the leasehold of our life into the care – completely – of One Who knows all that littleness has forgotten.  That One is Self; Big Me; the Holy Spirit. 

That relinquishing is our first step into the Kingdom because it enables us to let go of the tension of fear that is our motivation in the dream.  When we release our white-knuckle hold on fear it loses its tenure over us, and peace – the white noise of the Kingdom – can and will take its place.  Wholeness of mind and body can and will be the dividend as we move, one imperceptible step after another deeper into (remembrance of) the Kingdom, our true and only Home.

P.M. December 27^th 2008

...communing gets our mind focussed in the right direction, opening, or attuning it for receiving inspiration.  This is highly desirable and beneficial.  But new awarenesses that come in at such times have to be assimilated into our understanding and applied in our life before it becomes true knowingness.

Our step-by-step movement into remembrance of the Kingdom of Heaven is imperceptible to our sensory awareness as it is happening, because it is a growing, unfolding process.  Like a lettuce in the garden, we cannot see it growing by watching for it (The Kingdom of Heaven cometh not with observation). Yet if we compare it today with a week ago, then it is plain to see that it is more than it was.  Jesus counsels us, ‘Occupy ‘til I come’.  But spiritual growing or waking is not a ‘doing’ process; it is a ‘being’ — or ‘be-coming’ — process that is under the control of our true Self — when we place it with Him.

‘Occupying’ with mundane matters does not mean allowing our occupation to distract us from our spiritual growing.  Rather, it enables it because it keeps our littleness mind ‘occupied’, thus preventing it from trying to interfere with the process, like digging-up the seedlings to see if they are growing.  Our awakening is of the mind, in response to desire to waken, and is brought to us inspirationally, by Big Me, in a moment of new realisation here and another there, as we reach out in desire for Kingdom awareness, spiritual knowing.  These inspirational realisations do not result from thought processes, which are of the ego-device known as intellect; they come spontaneously — given in response to our desire — and when we experience them, we know they have come from Spirit, rather than from our own intellectual speculation.

Setting aside a time, such as first and/or last thing in the day, for communing gets our mind focussed in the right direction, opening, or attuning it for receiving inspiration.  This is highly desirable and beneficial.  But new awarenesses that come in at such times have to be assimilated into our understanding and applied in our life before they become true knowingness.  It is not the eating of food that makes a child grow, but the assimilation of the nourishment provided into the life system that results in growth.  To expect an immediate result in terms of enlarged spiritual stature is like a child eating a meal and expecting to grow an inch or two immediately as a result.

Spiritual growth or awakening comes gradually, imperceptibly, in response to a deep commitment to truly seeking and earnestly desiring the Kingdom of Heaven.

A.M. January 10^th 2009

 Peace is hand-in-glove with remembering.  So be steadfast in your positive commitment to remembering, and peace, inner peace, the peace of Papa — which passeth all understanding by littleness — the peace of Oneness, shall once more be all for you.

 Jesus, I honour you for who you are; the ‘firstborn’ back into the KOH, and our leader, guide, counsellor, saviour.  What is for me so joyous is that we are such genuine, loving, easy-to-be-together friends.  I have such a deep-seated feeling, which is far, far beyond words, of this in my ‘bones’.  I love you totally, overflowingly, my beloved brother.  Thank you for everything.  I am utterly glad that you know my heart, and that therein lies all that you are to me.  I rejoice mightily, totally in you.

 Finished? J.   Brian, if you rejoice in me half as much as I rejoice in you, then there is much rejoicing in Heaven and in Earth.  Our journey together through this act of yours has been a great and abiding joy for me, as I know also it has for you.  Of course, I knew from the beginning – aforetime – all about it, as also did you.  Then had to come your forgetfulness.  This will never happen again.  Now there is something to really rejoice over!  I dance with you the dance of freedom.  There is no better dance in all creation.  It is the dance of Eternity.

 I feel certain I will never tire of that dance.

 No-one ever does, or ever will.  It is the only dance worth learning, though in truth, there is no learning required; it is innate within you, as Papa’s Son, and emerges spontaneously at the moment of Self-realisation.  Peace is the central quality of Self-realisation, because one no longer has any doubt.  Certainty of Knowing removes all cause for doubt.  But this can only be achieved through the mechanism of believing.  It has to be that way because you, and all the fragments, have entered into forgetfulness.  So first, believe it is possible to remember, and you will remember.  Remember what?  That you know.  Know what?  Who you are!  Who are you?

 Papa’s Son!!

 Now, you Know that!  You are remembering.  Peace is hand-in-glove with remembering.  So be steadfast in your positive commitment to remembering, and peace, inner peace, the peace of Papa – which passeth all understanding by littleness – which is, and has always been with you, because you are Papa’s Son, created in perfect peace, the peace of Oneness, shall once more be all for you.  How could Papa’s Son be anything other than at perfect peace?  He has everything; he knows everything; he Loves everything.  That, assuredly, can only engender peace.  And with peace comes stillness.  Absolute.  So, Brian, beloved: peace, be still.

 Jesus, my joy!  I feel uplifted, light hearted, enheartened, humble.

 This happens in the presence of Papa.  Humility has nothing to do with self-effacement, which is ego’s domain.  Humility is the comfort of Knowing, which means there is nothing to prove, nothing to do; just allowing.

        J & B, together:  Wonderfulness!!

P.M. January 17^th 2009

...by steadfastly choosing to see in others only the face of Christ (in spite of any outward appearances to the contrary, all of which are illusions, and therefore, cannot be true), we can know that what we have chosen to behold is a reflection of our true Self.

Jesus is the ‘firstborn’* because he is the first to remember who he is.  This remembrance has accorded him ‘all power in Heaven and Earth’.   That power is the creation-right of us all, and will be ours again as soon as we waken to the awareness that it is already ours, and always has been, thus enabling us to receive it again unto ourself, so we may become, once more, our true Self.

It is the Power — all Power in Heaven and Earth — that enables the statement that the GRP is infallible and unstoppable.  Think about it for a moment.  If we were able to develop a wonderful, brilliant plan that would bring incalculable benefit to all, what two qualities about it would be most desirable and reassuring?  Assuredly, that it be 1) infallible and 2) unstoppable.  These two qualities mean that the outcome is unquestionable; certain; guaranteed.  Not a politician’s guarantee, but a true, absolute, incontrovertible, axiomatic, incontestable, God-guaranteed certainty.

This is how we can know, and be totally, unequivocally, unhesitatingly sure that the GRP is a done deal!  The fact that in the only true reality — Eternity — it has already happened, helps.  Well, more than just helps; puts the seal of God on it.  There are plenty who, lacking, for the moment, the Light of spiritual discernment, will have no awareness of the GRP or its infallibility and unstoppability, so would be in no position to see it as such.  But that makes not one scrap of difference to its reality, and the clever, the proud and the scornful (cps) will, one day, remember the truth and will change from cps to meek, lowly and humble (mlh), just like Jesus (Mt. 11:29; 18:4; 23:12).

We can help the cps to become mlh, and help ourself at the same time, by PCB’ing them, truly forgiving them and ourself for what they and we have never really done, and remembering that as we see others, so are we also.  Thus, by steadfastly choosing to see in others only the face of Christ (in spite of any outward appearances to the contrary, all of which are illusions, and therefore, cannot be true), we can know that what we have chosen to behold is a reflection of our true Self.  All this is certainty because regardless of how many failed attempts at the redemption of humanity there may have been in pre-history, such as the fabled Atlantis, there has never before been a leader, redeemer who remembered fully and completely who he is, and therefore was/is all-empowered in Heaven and Earth.

That is the difference.  That is what makes it an infallible and unstoppable certainty this time.

* ... he is the head of the body...: who is the beginning, the firstborn from the dead; that in all things he might have the preeminence (because he is the first) (Col 1:18)

A.M. January 25^th 2009

There is no hurry; you and I have taken a leisurely stroll together through the garden of remembrance during this act of yours.  All was prepared and laid out aforetime, in readiness for commencement of the fulfilment — or ‘Kingdom’ —measure of meal. 

Jesus, my beloved brother, guide and friend, “I am entitled to miracles” (ACIM W-pI.77.h); the timeliness of this lesson is – surprise! – perfect.  I feel I have arrived at the place of readiness for this truth to become my truth.  It seems so obviously right, logical, natural, ‘ordinary’, even.  I feel ready to receive and assimilate this statement of my true Self unto myself and become one with it, even as you were – and are – one with it.

Brian, my friend and brother, this act is the one in which you were – are – ready to believe, to receive truth and accept it unto yourself.  You have instinctively, intuitively, recognised it when it has been presented to you in the upside-down mind realm of this world, and it has grown you, one step at a time, to this place of awakening.

There is no hurry; you and I have taken a leisurely stroll together through the garden of remembrance during this act of yours.  All was prepared and laid out aforetime, in readiness for commencement of the fulfilment – or ‘Kingdom’ – measure of meal.  As I have said to you before, all that was preparation for what lay ahead.  Now, ‘what lay ahead’ is with you.  You have been led lovingly, caringly, willingly, eagerly to this place of readiness, so it all seems, feels perfectly right and comfortable.

What do we do with truth?

We share it; extend it.

To whom?

To all who will.  All who will receive of it, gladly.

How?

Freely, lovingly; enthusiastically!

Precisely.  One more way: wisely.

Oh yes; of course.

Wisdom grows, unfolds from within you as you take each step into truth and receive it and accept it unto yourself.  It becomes part of you because Papa’s Son has all the attributes of His Father.  Wisdom is yours, and you are beginning to temper your impetuous eagerness with wisdom.  It makes the sharing so much more rewarding, fulfilling and beneficial.  Little ones, learners, sensing the maturity, are more trusting.

I see the truth, the common sense in what you say.

Would that sense were more common! J.

Well, it is our inheritance from Papa, so it must be innate within us.

Of course this is so, inherently; but, for a moment, forgotten.

Together, co-operatively – because the GRP is co-operation – we can help to restore, awaken it within the fragments.

That is the general idea.

Alleluia.

Alleluia, indeed, my friend.  Do you find the prospect entertaining?

Entertaining?  Exciting, fulfilling; my heart’s desire as long as I can remember.

We are one in this, brother.  Are you not, now, glad that our walk together has been leisurely?  After all, there was no rush.  The leavening had to take its time, run its course.  To rush it causes it to collapse.  This was my temptation two thousand years ago, but I also had been prepared well for the task, and knew it had to unfold according to the PLFs, and so was able to stem the eagerness, knowing all would be perfect and eternal for the waiting.  I knew that infinite patience produces immediate results.  You are beginning to remember that.  It is a highly serviceable truth to remember.

I instinctively knew that as soon as I read it in ACIM.  You certainly were well prepared.  I had you.  Who did you have?

I think you know the answer to that.

Well, yes; now I think about it.  Big Guy.  It had to be; there was no-one else.

Yes.  Big Guy.  Papa’s Voice.  The still, small Voice within each fragment.  The Voice little guy does not want to hear all the while he is listening to that other, raucous, clamorous voice.  But clamour begins to pall eventually, and it did for me, so I went within, and gradually awakened to the remembrance of Who I Am.

Glory be!

Yes, indeed.  Glory is; who we are, because that is how Papa created His Son.  And now, you, too, begin to remember that that glory is in you because it is you, and you can amplify the ripple of remembrance as it expands upon the waters of human consciousness, that our brothers may begin to remember that they are glory also.  But keep in mind, there is nothing to prove; only to present/share, wisely, lovingly, gently, caringly and freely.

You forgot enthusiastically.

I knew you could be relied on to remember.

I feel another Alleluia coming on!

Endlessly.

Alleluia!

Walking with you, talking with you, being with you, living with you, breathing with you is so natural, spontaneous, joyful, peaceful, wonderful, reassuring, comfortable.  I love it.

Well, that’s the way it is with loving brothers who share all the same desires, interests, objectives.  That is also how it is with Papa, Brian.  After all, we are one, aren’t we!?

A.M. January 26^th 2009

When we have reached, returned, been restored to inner peace – which cannot be until there is forgiveness and reconciliation, healing of broken relationships – conflict, tension, judgement, grievance will be over.

Inner peace; a state of which the world has no awareness.  It is no wonder there is cancer; a ‘separated’ mind attacking its own body and destroying itself.  And all the other conflicts, at every level.  Only when we have reached, returned, been restored to inner peace – which cannot be until there is forgiveness and reconciliation, healing of broken relationships – conflict, tension, judgement, grievance will be over.  Then we will no longer ‘need’ the outer, or physical, because we will have remembered who, what and where we really are: One in the Sonship, in Heaven, an inner state of Being that is perfect Love, Joy and Peace.

It is easy to see how all the apparent physical – a dream, an illusion – has deceived us in our confused state of forgetfulness.  Thanks be that we are in the fulfilment measure of meal; the Kingdom measure.  Although it is only at, or by, the end of this that all the fragments will be restored to oneness, many of us – all who truly seek and earnestly desire the Kingdom on Earth – do not have to wait until then, and the falsehood of linear time will become, is becoming, more and more apparent as the Holy Instant, the eternal moment of NOW, takes its place.

Those who awaken sooner will be able to help those who still slumber, or are in varying stages of waking, just as is already happening now, with help not just from Jesus, but all who have espoused their lives to him and the GRP.

A.M. January 29^th 2009

The stone that started the pond rippling is Jesus.  Those fragments of the Sonship who have espoused their lives to the stone, Jesus, over multiple acts are amplifying the ripple and sending it on its way to others.  The process is empowered by the Spirit of Truth.

I begin to see how the GRP is gathering pace as the third measure of meal gets under way.  The stone that started the pond rippling is Jesus.  The church, which ego took over – and Jesus knew it would; it was inevitable because its mindset and its function are focussed in the without – is, nevertheless, being used by Holy Spirit.  This is unbeknown to ego, which can do nothing about it because the Holy Spirit functions from within.  This is by speaking – the Voice for God, the still, small voice within – to those fragments of the Sonship who have espoused their lives to the stone, Jesus, over multiple acts.  Those fragments are amplifying the ripple and sending it on its way to others.  The process is empowered by the Spirit of Truth, and increases exponentially as it expands across all aspects of mind activity, such as quantum physics theorising.

As I am prompted with referring to Jesus as the stone, I am instantly reminded of his words, quoting Psalm 118 to the Pharisees:

The stone which the builders rejected, the same is become the head of the corner: this is the Lord’s doing, and it is marvellous in our eyes. (Mt. 21:42)

A.M. January 31^st 2009

The only certainties are that Papa IS; that we are created in His likeness and all appearances to the contrary are illusory.  We can all say ‘I Am His beloved Son, created in Love, purity, innocence; that there can be nowhere that Papa is not, so we have never actually left Home.’

Truly, this world, the very idea of an ‘outer’ realm, all the apparently ‘physical universe’, including, and perhaps especially being with a body, is a distraction, designed to sidetrack us from being able to Know, to experience, to achieve and to have inner peace.   

It is, one could observe, the very converse of inner peace.  Inner peace is the absence of fear, and it is fear that is the foundation of the outer because it is apparent separation from our Home in Papa. 

Our Home in Papa is Love, security, all-Knowingness.  That estate can only engender peace, never fear.  So if we believe we have left Home, we have entered the unknown, where there is no Love, or security, or Knowledge; only perception, and since sensory perception shows us the antithesis of Home, it engenders fear.   

When we experience fear, doubt, uncertainty, we cannot be other than distracted.  Distraction draws the focus of mind down endless alleys of fear about anything and everything; possibilities of insane proportions.  A very destructive state of mind.   

This indicates the vital importance of going WITHIN, attuning the mind to CERTAINTIES.  The only certainties are that Papa IS; He is our Home; He Loves us; we are safe, secure, happy in Him.  We can all say ‘I Am His beloved Son, created in Love, purity, innocence; that there can be nowhere that Papa is not, so we have never actually left Home.’   

Our salvation depends on reminding ourself that this is our only reality, that anything to the contrary is simply made up, a dream. Therefore we can forgive all, including ourself, for what in truth never happened.

A.M. February 1^st 2009

All the while there is a part of ego left in us we cannot return to our true home in Papa.  This is where true forgiveness comes in because it focuses on the reality that no sin has actually been committed, so no judgement, condemnation or retribution is needful. 

Papa created His son, the Christ, in His Mind, with all the attributes of the Creator.  The Son is His only creation.  But the Son also creates, like his Father.  The Son made a momentary mistake, corrected in his mind instantly, but so empowered is his creativity that his mistaken thought immediately resulted in the big bang, the making of the without.  The without is the opposite of the reality of his Home in the Mind of Papa, even as its place – ‘without’ – indicates.  Love, joy, peace, life, all sufficiency are absent from this momentary aberration and in their place their opposites – fear, doubt, guilt, anxiety, scarcity, death – appear to be present.   

Although from the true perspective of Home, Heaven, Eternity, none of this exists, nor can it exist because it has no part in Papa – who is All-in-All; Love, Peace, Joy, eternally – the split-off part of the Son’s mind, which is upside down and perceiving what is not there, it appears to be his new reality, with all the opposite properties of reality.

So creativity became destructivity, and everything in time and place is designed to destroy, to come to an end.  But the greatest thinkers through the ages have had suspicions that all is a dream, and it was inevitable that one would emerge with clarity about the illusion.  He realigned his mind with the Creator through Papa’s Voice, remembered who he was and set in motion the GRP, the function of which is to restore to the fragments wholeness of Mind and oneness of Being in the Sonship, and lead us all back Home. 

Since separation is a dream, an illusion, a self-hypnosis, the process of restoration is an awakening from the dream to the reality of Eternity.  Our true nature as Papa’s Son is so powerful that the awakening process has to be one step at a time.  We have to be gradually reminded who we are, and the benign nature that is our true Self.  Too quickly and it would be too much of a shock to our awakening mind. 

Jesus has said to me many times, ‘Espouse good, eschew evil’.  We have to leave the ‘dark side’ that is separation behind before we can be fully awakened.  This is why the fulcrum of the GRP is the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth.  This is the state to which we, the fragments, will have been restored by the end of the third measure of meal.  In that estate we will have been restored to full memory of who we are, with absolutely no trace of ego, darkness, destructiveness in us.

 Just as Jesus was, and knew he was, so could he say at the Last Supper, ‘The prince of this world (ego, ‘Satan’, the accuser, the destroyer) cometh and hath nothing in me’.  All the while there is some of ego left in us we cannot return to our true home in Papa.  This is where true forgiveness comes in because it focuses on the reality that no sin has actually been committed, so no judgement, condemnation or retribution is needful.  So we can forgive our brother, ourself, the world, and see only the face of Christ in all, including, of course, Self, Who is all there is.

Without full and absolute release from ego, destructive possibilities would still appear to exist.  Only when all that is forgiven and released can the final step be taken.  At that stage we will be so close to Home, in the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth, that Papa will take that step for us and reach down to lift us up to oneness in Him.

A.M. February2^nd 2009

Inspiration is enabled, facilitated by our conscious choice to attune with Self.  This happens when we desire it.  It does not, cannot, happen unless and until we do desire it, because we have free will. 

A.M. February5^th 2009

Destructive, negative, judgemental, ugly ego-mind thoughts and grievances can sneak in to the unwary mind before we are even aware they are there.  Not resisting or striving to eliminate them enables them to run off, like rainwater from a roof.

A.M. February15^th 2009

Our true Self knows that It already has everything, knows everything; that the only way to move into the awareness of that true state of Being is to relinquish contest, conflict, competition.  This is because ego can only have any apparent existence in conflict, tension, antagonism, grievance, judgement.

A.M. February16^th 2009

...no defence is required when there is no attack seen... If we perceive attack we are not listening to the Spirit of Truth, our real Self.

There is no contest, or conflict, between ego and Self, because Self is unassailable, innocent, eternal, indestructible, and no defence is required when there is no attack seen.  It is only the split-off-from-truth part of our mind that perceives attack, even though in reality it is not there.  If we perceive attack we are not listening to the Spirit of Truth, our real Self.  Like everything in the without, in time and place, it is not real, and like the tug o’ war rope, as soon as we give up pulling on it, it goes slack, because we have relinquished resistance.

There is no opposite to God; only opposition.  Love is creative; fear is destructive.

A.M. February19^th 2009

The world appears to have many beautiful attributes.  This does not mean the King of Eternity has a hand in the unreality of the temporal.  Neither does it mean we should not allow ourselves to enjoy the beauty of a landscape, a sunset, a moment, as long as it does not lull us into the belief that this is real.

Love creates; fear destroys.  Love unifies; fear divides.  Love forgives; fear accuses.  Love is Light; fear is darkness.  Love is peaceful and still; fear is turbulent and de-stabilising.

Why would we choose any of ego’s qualities?  Only insanity could or would do that.  The list of ego’s properties goes on.  All are in opposition to Papa, Heaven, Eternity – and us, His Son.  Ego has deceived us or, more accurately, we have allowed ourself to be deceived into believing that this time and place realm is created by God, but if we look closely we can see the flaw in that percept.

Jesus said, ‘Let the dead bury their dead.’  This refers to our time and place consciousness, in which everything is temporal, finite, comes to an end, and appears only in form, and is therefore limited.  In contrast, all that is of Papa’s creation is limitless and eternal.  All that appears to have life in form can only have it at the expense of other life forms. 

The world appears to have many beautiful attributes.  This does not mean the King of Eternity has a hand in the unreality of the temporal.  Neither does it mean we should not allow ourselves to enjoy the beauty of a landscape, a sunset, a moment, as long as it does not lull us into the belief that this is real.  Only the unchanging and unchangeable that is eternity can be real.  What is here today but gone tomorrow – is ephemeral – cannot be real.

A.M. February20^th 2009

Give up to Me all fear, the great dismantler of peace, and give thanks that, having placed all the affairs of your life in My care, you can know of a certainty that everything that appears before you is, and can only be, the perfect thing.

Beloved Papa, I give thanks for our brother, Jesus, sent by You to remind us of and restore us to eternal truth, so that we can, again, have true vision of Your Kingdom of Love, Peace and Joy.  To this, the Great Rescue Programme, I have committed myself one-pointedly, for the glorification of Your Name in us, Your beloved Son.

This is the end of dis-ease, fear, dissonance, the dispelling of time and all other illusions, and your return to oneness in Me eternally, My Son.  Give up to Me all fear, the great dismantler of peace, and give thanks that, having placed all the affairs of your life in My care, you can know of a certainty that everything that appears before you is, and can only be, the perfect thing.  Therefore, by accepting it as such – a gift – it is an opportunity to transform adversity into fulfilment, temporal illusion into eternal reality.

A.M. February23^rd 2009

Your sense of vulnerability is merely your illusion about what is your reality; a self-made misperception of who you are.  By giving it to Me you are surrendering your illusions and freeing yourself to remembrance of the reality of Self.

I realise that we are at a cross-road where we can chose to enlarge/accelerate our progress toward Self-Realisation, or continue to move along at our present, stop-start rate.  This is regulated by whether, or how, we choose to engage with events that appear to be happening around us, or simply to be observers, passersby, knowing it is not our reality, and ‘bless and allow’.  I feel a great, upwelling desire for a quantum leap of awareness of eternal, spiritual reality; of the Love of Papa, which is our life, our very Being.  We are at choice how, at what level, we experience this.  From my own within I am feeling a great impulsion to be all-engaged with, subsumed by, this expansion of Love-in-operation.

Papa, I give You my sense of vulnerability.  I place it upon Your altar, as my sign that I would have no other gods before you.

My Son, your sense of vulnerability is merely your illusion about what is your reality; a self-made misperception of who you are.  By giving it to Me you are surrendering your illusions and freeing yourself to remembrance of the reality of Self.

A.M. March 7^th, 2009

If humanity does not waken to the realisation of opportunity instead of adversity, and use it to transform motivation from fear to Love, then further opportunities, self-jolts, will continue to present themselves.  For transformation –  Awakening –  is inevitable and unstoppable.  Have no fear; all is accommodated within the GRP.

I have been aware for some years that the collapse of the old order of money control over our lives, which has now taken such a rapid and traumatic lurch forward, is a key ingredient of the Great Rescue Programme (GRP).  The GRP is designed to bring about an awakening from an ego-contrived unreality, devised to control, confuse, imprison us in time and place, scarcity consciousness.

The collapse of what Jesus called ‘the mammon of unrighteousness’ has always been inevitable, for in a three-dimensional realm – from which the separated-from-eternal-Truth, fragmented Sonship seeks to exclude the Light – cause and effect rule. Fear is the controlling energy of time and place – ‘egoland’.  Fear begets selfishness, greed – as far as we can remove ourself from the beneficence of Truth.

Twenty or so years ago Jesus told me the world needs a jolt; that when people are ready, but unwilling to awaken, a jolt will do the job.  His words slightly scared me at the time because fear still had such a hold on me, and I was concerned that some terrible physical cataclysm was going to happen –  like a meteor causing a mass-extinction event.  I did not realise at the time he said that to me that we are the author of our own experience; that nothing outside ourself causes whatever effects we experience.  Now I know this is how the Principles of Life of the Father (PLFs) work.

We have called into our presence a great, mighty gift; a great and mighty opportunity.  The collapse of the ‘old order’ (fear) mammon (money) system is a global Opportunity to Transform Adversity into Fulfilment (OTAF).  I have had an inner knowing for many years that a redirection of humanity, in its self-formed ‘consensus reality’ was inescapable, unavoidable, though I had no idea how or when it would be, or the form it would take. 

If humanity does not waken to the realisation of opportunity instead of adversity, and use it to transform motivation from fear to Love, then further opportunities, self-jolts, will continue to present themselves.  For transformation –  Awakening –  is inevitable and unstoppable.  Have no fear; all is accommodated within the GRP.

A.M. March 10^th, 2009

Don’t try to force anything.  Oneness — our oneness — IS.  That cannot be changed.  It was, is and will always be, unchangeably, so.  The key to awareness of that is acceptance.

Those of us who have a greater awareness of the Eternal Realities can help in the leavening of the third measure of meal – indeed, it is we who are the leaven – by irradiating the world, human consciousness, with Peace, Joy, Love, and the transforming blessing of true forgiveness.  In this way we join our minds, dispelling the illusion of separation back to the reality of our Oneness of Mind – Christ Mind – which is the all-empowered creative force for releasing us all from the ego-world of fear, doubt, conflict, destruction, to the Kingdom world of peace, harmony, balance.

Dear Self: that greeting seems a rather formal, remote even, way to commence a communing with... er, Self.  I still have a sense of ‘Self’ being other than who I am, and much of the time think in terms of ‘You’, rather than ‘I’.

Don’t try to force anything.  Oneness – our oneness – IS.  That cannot be changed.  It was, is and will always be, unchangeably, so.  The key to awareness of that is acceptance.  Persona Brian (pB) is accepting of that.  That is good.  It is all that is required.  Awareness grows, one step at a time, until it is complete.  Allow it to happen.  Don’t dig up the seedlings.  Like all things of Eternity, believing, having faith is the only way back to reality from the dream.

It is because of your belief, your faith, your willingness to accept that pB has made such progress in just a few months since the ‘Big Guy’ moment*.  That moment happened because pB was ready for it to happen.  PB is also strong in desire and willingness for remembrance.  Maintaining steadfast focus on the oneness of Self, in Papa – something about which pB knows and writes, often J, assuredly will bring the oneness of Self that pB earnestly desires.

* Please see MoE dated June 18^th 2008 for explanation of this.

A.M. March 12^th, 2009

Think as Self; imagine from Self perspective; be Self-aware.  This is how Jesus functioned.  His body was a vehicle for Self to function through, and he did that, he allowed it.  This is the blueprint for all to work to.

‘I’ am one who, like most, am often confused about who that ‘one’ is.  Seeming to be persona Brian (pB), in a separated part of his mind, basing ‘reality’ on ‘past’ experiences and consensus illusions, but seeking to remember the Truth of One.  One Creator, one created.  Father and Son; the Son like the Father Creator, created in the Mind of the One Creator.  Forever in the Mind, just as created, yet, forever, like Papa, creating.  B is seeking and is finding, remembering his true reality as Self, one step at a time.

All this remembering is Mind activity.  ‘Body’ B is an illusion, a distraction from that, unless Self is allowed primacy in the process.  Self already IS and always has been, so KNOWS.  This is why persona B can only remember by choosing, freely, to place itself within the leading, guiding, directing of benign, all-knowing Self.  The two are One, yet B will be subsumed into Self and be truly One by allowing, not resisting.  This enables Self to illuminate the forgetful, confused, separated part of the mind that sees double and believes in B, littleness and limitation.

The process is advancing well, and big progress has already been made.  This is possible because of willingness to remember Self.  Think as Self; imagine from Self perspective; be Self-aware.  This is how Jesus functioned.  His body was a vehicle for Self to function through, and he did that, he allowed it.  This is the blueprint for all to work to.  Forget the illusory separateness expressed in bodies; it is One Mind back toward which One works.  

Mind is the operating system and is gathering the fragments together, drawn by the Spirit of Oneness – Papa – back into One Mind Reality.  Trying to force it, out of a sense of urgency, has the opposite effect.  Accept, allow and it happens, unaided by self (pB), who cannot actively help because self has forgotten, and therefore does not know.

Beloved, it cannot be other for sanity to prevail.  Anything less than total commitment to oneness is, in effect, no commitment, because to allow ego any part of you draws, snares, entraps you in the separation consciousness, and fear remains your constant companion.  Choose Peace, Joy, Love.  I am the Light; you, equally, are the Light.  This is already true and has ever been so.  It is not a future-indeterminate thing, as ego would have you believe.  It is a NOW and ALWAYS thing.  All that is needful is attunement – at-onement – with, focus upon, opening your single eye to, the Light and It is there, in your awareness.  I Know this; Self Knows this.  All who are Awake Know It and experience It, not just within themselves but in all the brethren.  How wondrous is that? ☺

 Oneness with beloved, all-loving Self; waking to that Reality is my desire.  It seems as if there is so much to remember.  But all the ‘tools’ are in place, and Self is in control of the process because persona Brian has placed Him there by a willingness to surrender his ego-leasehold.  There is nothing more to ‘do’ except remain open, receptive and willing to co-operate in the waking/remembering process. 

 I give thanks that our Truth is Holy/Whole Self and that all are being restored to remembrance of eternal Truth of Being.

P.M. March 21^st, 2009

Papa is as an ocean; the Ocean.  We are part of the Ocean.  There is no separation, no line of demarcation.  All is Love and Light.  An Ocean of Love and Light.  All-knowing, all-aware.  All I Am.  The I Am is in all.  Every molecule of the water that comprises the Ocean is All that the Ocean Is; whole, the Light, the Love. 

An allegory:

 Papa is as an ocean; the Ocean.  We are part of the Ocean.  There is no separation, no line of demarcation.  All is Love and Light.  An Ocean of Love and Light.  All-knowing, all-aware.  All I Am.  The I Am is in all.  Every molecule of the water that comprises the Ocean is All that the Ocean Is; whole, the Light, the Love.  Every drop of water knows, is part of, one with the Ocean and every part of the Ocean.  There is no separateness; only Oneness.  The Oneness is all that the Ocean is; even drops of water as dew on a blade of grass, vapour in a cloud, moisture in the soil, a snowflake crystal... all are within the Oneness.

 We are like snowflake crystals.  We see ourselves as separate from the Ocean, separate from each other, each unique, different, regardless of whether we are all together in a snowdrift, or blowing in the wind, distant from each other.  We say every one is unlike every other, each an individual, distinct design, or form.  That is who and what we believe we are.  Even if we are ultimately part of the Ocean, right now, we are not; we are separate.

 But the Oneness is nothing to do with outward appearances, or seeming geographic distance from the Ocean, because the Oneness is in the within of us and the Ocean.  It is a metaphysical, not a physical Oneness.  It is a Oneness of Being that is unchangeable, regardless of appearance.  Water can appear as vapour, liquid or solid but it is all water; the same oneness regardless of temporary form, or appearance of difference.

 It is a spiritual Oneness within its fundamental nature.  One could say, for the purposes of the allegory, that the Oneness is its ‘H₂O-ness’.  Whether in the Ocean or appearing as a snowflake, it is all one in its H₂O-ness.  We are deceiving ourselves by outward appearances of our differences, our separateness by perceiving ourselves as snowflakes.  The essential, unchangeable nature of our eternal Being is H₂O-ness.

 The New Dawn is now breaking, and the Light of the Eternal Day is casting, shining its loving, Awakening, quickening warmth upon us.  This begins the melting, thawing process.  The snowflake crystal dissolves, loses its temporary (and thus, unreal, because only Eternity is real), individual identity.  To most of us this engenders fear because it seems to be a death, a loss of self.  But rather than being a death or a loss, it is an Awakening, a remembering, a reunifying with the Source, the Ocean, with Self, the true nature of Being. 

 The melted snowflake remains, at all times and through all events, its essential Self: H₂O.  H₂O is, within this allegory, a symbol of the eternal, unchanging, unchangeable spirit that is the Creator Spirit, and of Which we are an indivisible part.  As the part of the Oneness, the Ocean that appeared, momentarily, as a snowflake thaws and melts, so does the journey back to the Ocean begin.  It becomes a drop of water and this joins with other drops of water, entering into a river, heading back to the Source, the Ocean.

 When we begin to remember who we are, our crystalline, temporary snowflake identity loses its significance for us as we realise it was only ever going to be temporary, an illusion.  We find ourselves synchronistically coming into contact with like-minded others, and that the spiritual fellowship – joining with them – brings us a level of joy, inner peace and fulfilment that the snowflake was never able to experience.  Things that seemed to be valuable, important, lose their value, importance to us and something of immeasurably greater value – our Oneness – comes into focus.

 It makes no difference if the water droplets become sullied with other materials on the journey, for it retains its unchangeable, essential H₂O-ness, regardless of whatever contamination may appear to tarnish its true nature. 

 Most of us think our reunifying with our Source, our Creator, happens after we have laid aside our ‘snowflake’, our vehicle of expression in this three-dimensional realm; that such reunifying cannot happen while we are stuck in a body.  This was never the case with Jesus (“I and my Father are one”) and it does not have to be the case with us.  Indeed, all the while we remain espoused to this false belief, this misperception, we will find a reunifying with the Source, the Ocean after we have laid aside our body, is not possible, and we will have to return, take another body into our presence, another opportunity to remember who we really are: ‘H₂O’.

 Any contamination we – H₂O – may appear to collect during our sojourn as a snowflake, and in the return journey to the Ocean, will be purified.  It only seems fearful if we focus on the wrong thing; the contamination, instead of our essential nature.  When the Light shines Its warmth upon us we are raised up from the contaminant.  Our true nature is uplifted, evaporates away from the dross, leaving it behind.

P.M. March 25^th, 2009 

Focus on PLFs (Principles of Life of the Father), not on details.  Wellness, wholeness/holiness, oneness are PLFs, eternal, and raise up.  Illness, fear, guilt, dis-ease are details, are of time and place, and distract, sidetrack and drag downwards and backwards, away from wholeness. 

Focus on PLFs (Principles of Life of the Father), not on details.  Wellness, wholeness/ holiness, oneness are PLFs, eternal, and raise up.  Illness, fear, guilt, dis-ease are details, are of time and place, and distract, sidetrack and drag downwards and backwards, away from wholeness. 

H₂O * is a PLF, unchangeable, eternal; snowflake * is a detail, devised to distract from awareness of Wholeness to time and place, littleness, vulnerability.  Holiness is a state of Being; it is who all the fragments of the Sonship ARE.  It does not imply a need, for all are whole/holy and this becomes apparent by looking past the detail, the distraction, the prestidigitation.   

Therefore, religious display and self-effacing piety (making oneself a sinner, less than True Self) are unserviceable and therefore inappropriate.  Loving, honouring and giving thanks to Papa for the eternal, unchangeable Truth of Being is appropriate.  It is also highly beneficial because it is a powerful focus on invulnerable, eternal H₂O, and thus, automatically, away from the illusory distractions of vulnerable, time and place snowflake. 

* For explanation of this, please see the preceding Diary entry, dated P.M. March 21^st 2009

Give thanks for the life, Love, blessing of all your brothers in the Sonship.  Bless them with Joy and Peace and for their steadfastness of commitment to the Kingdom.  For those who still slumber fitfully in the consciousness of fear, send a heart overflowing with Love, and thanks also, for the opportunity to grow by remembering that they, too, are the Light, and are calling for your Love. 

Good! ☺  It is yours, My Son; receive it unto yourself, and accept it there.  I have not, ever, withheld it from you.  It is yours as you attune with it, in your communing, your musing, in your focusing on the GRP, in your studies of ACIM.  At any moment it is yours, by at-onement, by attunement.  Meanwhile, do not be downcast by moments of unawareness, however prolonged they may seem to be.  Rejoice and be glad, rather, that you know – and have many experiences of – the reality, the joy, peace and Love of your eternal Home; Me.

The following Diary entry was posted on January 4th 2012

A.M. April 5^th, 2009 

Yet I still experience moments of uncertainty, though I truly desire to unwaveringly follow this path.  I feel drawn, led, ready for it. 

The second measure of meal was the Jesus measure, in whom the fragments – at least some of them, enough of them – came to place their trust, and thus were leavened, raised up.  This was an essential step in the GRP, that the fragments could begin to become aware that an all-empowered human was not only possible but actual, and identifiable with us.  This human – homo dei spiritui – is our all loving, caring, understanding, forgiving Lord, brother, Guide to Eternity, and it is our inescapable destiny to become like him in all his Kingdomly attributes.  

It is not something to become, but to remember, for B is already This.  All the brethren are This, NOW.  So, let them be re-minded, according to My leading.  I will bring about – am bringing about – the events, the circumstances whereby this will be enabled.  Leave all to Self.  Surrender the ego leasehold, that vacant possession may be uptaken by, restored to, the Freeholder.  Jesus is the example for ‘B,’ as he was and is for all.  One step at a time shall this be fulfilled.  No opportunity can be wasted and none shall be lost, by B’s obedience to Self’s leading. 

None of this is unique, or exceptional, but freely ours, for the asking; our Creation-right and inheritance.  We have dreamed we threw it all away, but now we are awakening and remembering reality.  Home.  That is the Gospel – ‘Good news’ – that Jesus came to bring us.  Compared with what we have made here in time and place, that sounds like good news to me J.

July 24^th 2009

B to Self...   

Beloved Self; my heart surges with joy and anticipation as I attune with You, setting aside a sacred time for oneness. 

You know that oneness with You, Self, is the only objective, and it is my objective.  B desires, wills, that it be so, and that the most direct, rapid route to that is what I am seeking to follow, by and with Your leading. 

Thank you, Self, for painting the broader picture, and helping me to assimilate the awareness and understanding, that further sharing with all who will is enabled.

A.M. August 1^st 2009 

A.M. August 10^th 2009 

Beloved Self, when I attune – join – with You, I feel as if I am connecting with safety, wholeness, reality.  It immediately places me in a state of peace, a sense of wellbeing; that I am being protected, guided, led to the Place where all is as it should be: free of fear, guilt, anxiety.  You are my rock, my strength, my anchor, my Guide.  When I am joined with You I am whole. 

Yes.  And not that long ago such a thought caused me concern – fear even – that something real and palpable was being lost.  I did not want that to happen; it seemed like a sacrifice.  But now, I rejoice at the prospect, because I realise that I am identifying more with Self and less with B.  I now see that this means I am Awakening to who I really am, and giving up, letting go of, surrendering, my ego persona identity/leasehold to its rightful Freeholder.  How magnificent is that!? 

Major progress indeed.  And it has all been happening one step at a time, imperceptibly, this persona-ectomy. ☺  This is not surgery but a withdrawal of the focus of awareness from one perceived reality to the truth of your Being.  So is it with the fear of death.  It is a fear of losing something that seems real but in truth was never there. 

This was always the plan for B, wasn’t it?  I feel that deep within. 

Of course, as for all the fragments; your feeling does not deceive you.  B is a harbinger, a messenger, with a message to deliver.  He is already delivering that message.  It will continue.  It required much preparation, over ‘half a lifetime’, so that he could be brought, one step at a time, to the place of readiness.  This also required – and still requires – balance.  Humility is easily flexed and distorted in the hands of ego into a travesty of its reality.  Confidence needed to be grown in B that he was on the right path, the path aforetime agreed with he whom you had elected to follow – with whom you had journeyed many times before. 

...You are surely not implying that B is impatient or impetuous? 

A.M. August 22^nd 2009 

There is so much on my mind at present, Self, it is making attunement with inner peace difficult. 

Aaah – that’s the spirit – surrender. 

Hey!  That’s my word J 

Well, I am now well aware that the only constructive use of time is attuning, joining, with You, Papa, Jesus, until I am fully Identified with Truth.  And You are the Spirit of Truth.  And the truth shall make me free; free from bodies, time and place, all illusions. 

My desire is to bring my brothers with me, so that we, the brotherhood of man, are rejoined in the full wakefulness of oneness in the Sonship. 

I guess this is why impatience to be getting on with it keeps dogging me. 

I don’t need two guesses.  Patience. 

A truly worthy goal from where I’m looking. 

“You can do it, Self.”  He instantly replied: 

A.M. September 13^th 2009 

Beloved Self, thank you for all the blessed opportunities to grow, learn, remember, so that I can share, extend to, help as many of my brothers as possible to also remember.  Don’t let me miss a single opportunity. 

Yes, I see that.  I hadn’t quite thought of it like that, but now You say it, I can see it plainly.  Thank You for bringing it to my attention. You are in every way better than any p.a. could be. 

I know I am impatient; I want it all, right now – full remembrance, that is – but I do understand the  essential importance of balance; and balanced growth, or progress can only be possible when we, the fragments, go forward one step at a time. 

Alleluia!  That is one valuable piece of encouragement.  My confidence is wonderfully boosted by our communing like this. 

Thank You, Self. 

Thank you, beloved Jesus, for these beautiful, precious, blessed words of wisdom, illumination and eternal truth, the perfect reminder of the true Self, the true Being of us all.  We Love you, we give thanks to you and for you, we rejoice in you: 

A.M. September 21^st 2009 

I Love You, Papa; I rejoice in You. 

Thank You, beloved Papa.  There is nothing I desire more than that; the ecstasy of our Oneness. 

A.M. September 26^th 2009 

Well, never let it be said that persona B is a party-pooper, so bring on the celebrations! 

To my Self, and to all my beloved fellows – siblings – in the Sonship – I say Thank you, each and every one, for the loving presence and help, support, uplift and joy you all contribute to our journey together here. I give a heart full of thanks, love and blessing to you ALL. J.  

A.M. September 27^th 2009 

Beloved Self,  I give thanks to Papa, for this miracle of healing (seized-up back restored by tingling in all the spasmed muscles, bringing immediate release and wellbeing).  I choose to always ask, seek and be accepting of miracles.  

P.M. September 28^th 2009 

Beloved Self:  It dawns on me that inner peace can be possible only by joining with You, by becoming re-united with You.  This is because ‘I’, ‘we’ – all the fragments, individually and collectively – are ‘You’, which is simply an illusorily pluralised ‘I Am’.  But language symbols are devised to perpetuate the separation consciousness, so do not express the intent accurately. 

P.M. October 4^th 2009,  

Beloved Self; I choose, will, to see things from Your perspective, rather than persona Brian’s (‘pB’).  So, what would ‘I’, as Self, be seeking from pB in using him as a communication mechanism, for furthering the Kingdom Programme, or GRP, here on Earth?

Well, I just wanted to clarify the point. J

Well, You have a way of getting my attention with Your rhetorical questions J.  Another resounding NO. But I was going to ask about miracles of healing for me, since from what you have been saying about understanding and extending, and ripples on ponds, it has to start in our own inner being and radiate out from there.  And Jesus says in chapter 4, section I of the Text of ACIM “I can be entrusted with your body (and your ego) only because this enables you not to be concerned with them, and lets me teach you their unimportance”.  As I have no doubt You very well know, since I have been bashing Your ear about it for long enough, I am willing for there to be a miraculous healing... of this back trouble, for example...

A.M.  November 28^th 2009 

Good morning, beloved Self . 

Jesus counsels that we ask You for Your evaluation of us; not to be afraid of it, because it comes from Papa; that it is exalted, because of its Source, and therefore true.  I have a sense of my value in and to the Sonship yet have been concerned that arrogance – ego-driven – might get in and distort it.  But after reading ACIM T- 9.VIII I feel more able to ask, because it is being more honest and open with myself.  So, over to You, because I feel that this will help remove some blocks to hearing You that I seem to have placed between us. 

I believe I have been steadfast, at least within my heart, my desire, even if there had been times when outward signs of that following were causing apparent lapses. 

Hundreds, if not thousands. 

Yes, absolutely. 

Arrival at the only destination, at the perfect moment, and then forever. 

Thank You for being so relentless in Your focus on Truth and Light. 

Er... Yes!  Thank You, so much.  I Love You.  Is it all right for pB to say, or experience ‘Loving You’, when I am You and You are me; we are one? 

Well, when You put it like that it does make it obvious. 

P.M. April 2^nd 2010 

Good point, because it had to be You.  I know he was willing, and if I say it myself, it is hard to imagine anyone also more willing than pB. 

More than I can recount, but I am aware that it happens with great frequency. 

P.M. April 10^th 2010 

Dear Holy Spirit/Self; I am, I believe, not afraid to look within to find truth.  Though, if Arten and Pursah are correct, there are still untold ‘issues’ for resolution lurking deep in the ‘basement’ of my unconscious mind.

Thank you for this reassurance.  I did recently experience a couple of dreams with a ‘ripple’ of fear...

No; nothing.

Of course You already know the answer to that.

I am filled with gratitude at Your caring, Your all-empowered and enabled leading and guiding of my Awakening.

If only they knew how their fear of such willingness keeps them chained to darkness and forgetfulness.

Alleluia!  That is my burning, yearning desire, above all, that we may be restored together to the joy of release from fear to the Love and Peace of Heaven.

A.M. April 25^th 2010 

Focus not on targets, or doing, or accomplishments but simply on Being.  There is nothing to do.  All is complete in the Kingdom, so focus on Being in the Kingdom, which is where you already are, have always been and can never not be. 

Time and place (t&p) are about doing; Eternity is about Being.  The two are opposites, as with everything in t&p being the opposite of Eternity.  We are so inured in t&p that even when we awaken to the point of desiring restoration to the Eternity of Being, we don’t know how to “do” it! 

Focus not on targets, or doing, or accomplishments but simply on Being.  There is nothing to do.  All is complete in the Kingdom, so focus on Being in the Kingdom, which is where you already are, have always been and can never not be. 

Being is stillness; it is peace.  Peace extends itself without effort.  Let no outer appearances or ‘events’ distract you from centredness in peace.  From within your centredness in inner peace comes communion with the Source of all Being, awareness of Truth, ultimate reality, Knowingness.  This state of centredness is not something you ‘do’; it is something you can only allow. 

This is contra to all ego-mindedness, and ego will resist all your endeavours to let go of its script.  This causes a sense of battle taking place in your mind.  Do not resist this.  Allow it, calmly.  The alternative – resisting – means joining battle with ego, and ego has, by your joining, won again.  Join with Me – Self – not with ego; for only herein lies inner peace.

P.M. April 27th 2010

Practise affirmations for your focussing, centring, uplifting.  Say: ‘I Am... Just as Papa created me; I Am... Loved, unconditionally and eternally, every moment; I Am... forgiving of myself and my brothers; I Am... Loving; I Am... compassionate; I Am... caring; I Am... free’ ...

Dear Holy Spirit, Sometimes I wonder, do I really know how to let go and start giving myself to You...? (At this point He interrupted me loudly and emphatically)

DON’T START QUESTIONING! Questioning is an ego pastime.  Remember that, and simply start surrendering instead.

But what’s the difference between questioning and asking?  Jesus tells us we should ask and it will be given us.

Questioning is doubting.  Doubting is unbelieving; an affirmation of commitment to littleness.  Asking is desiring to know; a request for help in remembering what is already known, but temporarily forgotten.  Asking is seeking, enquiring, opening, allowing, trusting, believing.   Questioning is doubting, dismantling, destructive, negative.

I had never realised that they were two distinct things, and are really opposites.

There is much you have not yet realised, or remembered, but this does not matter. J.  Surrender does matter.  It is imperative to spiritual awakening, and without it, ego will retain its leasehold in your life, and keep you separate from your true Being – Self.  That will keep you from Home, Papa, your brethren in the Sonship, Truth, Perfect Love, Inner Peace and Joy.

Wow! That is a comprehensive list.

It is everything.  It is your Source, your eternal reality, your very Being.

Affirming is building, reassuring, strengthening. Practise affirmations for your focusing, centring, uplifting. Say: ‘I Am... Just as Papa created me; I Am... Loved, unconditionally and eternally, every moment; I Am... forgiving of myself and my brothers; I Am... Loving; I Am... compassionate; I Am... caring; I Am... free’ ... You can add to the list as inspiration moves you; but always keep it positive and it will always be truthful and uplifting. Remember: doubt is ego’s dismantling device.

 All IS well.  I Am… with you always. J.

A.M. May 2^nd 2010 

The time, the moment has come to cease individual, separate perception, with ‘others, out there’...  You know this ability already lies within your mind.  Engage it.  Engage with it.  It is Who you Are because it is Me – Self; your Self, One Self.  The Self that you, that all, truly Are.   

Beloved Holy Spirit, Your speaking, with pB is far more than ‘speaking’; it is communing with, reaching the inmost parts of my correction-needing mind. 

I speak, or commune, with all as the One that all the fragments of the Sonship are.  Do not think of being individual ‘pB’, but as Being One – or One Being J – the fragments gathered together, reunited by the embracing Arms of Papa, right into His Heart. 

The time, the moment has come to cease individual, separate perception, with ‘others, out there’, as if seen by pB ‘here’.  You know this ability already lies within your mind.  Engage it.  Engage with it.  It is Who you Are because it is Me – Self; your Self, One Self.  The Self that you, that all, truly Are.  There is no Brian, or Theresa, nor any of the other apparent personas scurrying around ‘out there’.  There is but One Self. 

Realise this as the certainty of not just ‘your’ being, but simply of all Being, and Self-Realisation will have been restored; and persona-self will have ceased to be important, and will, in truth, cease to exist, just as, in reality, always has been and always will be the case. 

I see that pB is relaxing into this; allowing it, accepting it; actually experiencing peace by it, and not fear. 

This is because I realise this is more, gain, increase, growing, becoming, extending, sharing, and not losing identity. 

This is absolutely correct, and is a very positive indicator of the Awakening progress taking place from within.  Truly, this is as great a cause for rejoicing as any could ever be on the journey.  Allow pB to retain this greater awareness, and function from that.  This is true freedom, release into true empowerment, realisation of the ‘One-drousness’  of Papa’s one, eternal Son. 

Judgement prevents us from seeing only the face of Christ in our brothers.  Only relinquishing judgement enables it.  True forgiveness is the mechanism that activates it.   

Judgement is based in past misperception.  Relinquishing judgement brings release from the endless recycling of the past – including ‘past’ incarnations – and restores all to the Holy Instant that is Now, the eternal, unchanging Present of eternity. 

And You will, with our co-operation, remove the blocks to our awareness of Love’s presence. 

This can only be possible in the present; never in the past, because there is no past.  It was all made up, and now is gone, forever.

A.M. May 18^th 2010 

The qualities that make the Kingdom of Heaven on Earth what it is cannot be simply a veneer on the old order – the ego order, which is judgement – because it would continue to foment beneath the surface, and keep erupting around the world, like volcanoes. 

If we want to escape t&p we must retrain our mind away from thinking/perceiving from the t&p perspective.  There is a major campaign to remove the cataracts from our vision, and the front of this campaign – the GRP – is broadening. 

Holy Spirit, with You, I have nothing to hide; for You Know me completely, so there is no need for pretence, for holding up masks. 

Interesting that you used the plural.  For the fragmented Sonship perceives the need for many masks.  The most frequently employed mask is judgement.  How many say they want peace, freedom, justice, happiness... for all – the KOHOE – but how many are ready and willing to commit to the one thing that will bring it: substituting judgement with true forgiveness? 

The qualities that make the KOHOE what it is cannot be simply a veneer on the old order – the ego order, which is judgement – because it would continue to foment beneath the surface, and keep erupting around the world, like volcanoes.  This is the level of attachment to judgement that causes the unwillingness to surrender it, due to blindness to the fact that surrendering it in favour of its opposite – forgiveness – is the prerequisite to the Kingdom. 

War is happening – behind closed doors – on every street in every country because of judgement.  This is the fundamental cause of war at every level.  The insanity of it is demonstrated by the absurdity that people are fighting for peace.  To find release from this battleground let your mantra be ‘The world I see holds nothing that I want.’

A.M. May 23^rd 2010 

There is no difference between you, or any fragment, and Jesus.  The Whole is in the parts.  Remember this and you are restored to Wholeness.  By communing with Me you commune with Papa.  Communing is joining, or re-joining, or becoming again, as One, or Whole. 

Beloved Holy Spirit;  You introduced Yourself to me as the Holy Breath¹ and now I read that you emphasise awareness of breathing to Pamela Silberman².  How is our body’s breathing in oxygen (O₂) connected to You? 

Breathing O₂ is what ‘keeps you alive’ within the dream of being with a body.  Within the context of the dream, O₂ is, therefore, perceived as the breath of life.  At the level of eternal reality, I Am the Holy Breath; the Breath of God.  When you sing the hymn ‘Breathe on me, Breath of God’³ you are inviting me to visit with you and to remain with you, filling you with life anew. 

Life is only experienced when you have awareness of it.  The fragmented Sonship has awareness of life, or being, only at the illusory, bodily level.  At that level, the breath of life appears as the air you breathe.  As remembrance of Who you are begins to return, so do you remember that your very Life, or Being, is sustained from the Source of All Life – Papa.  I Am the link with the Source for all the fragments; and so I Am, for you, the Holy Breath. 

‘No man comes to the Father except by me.’  When Jesus spoke those words, he spoke them as the Spirit of Truth, in bodily-communicating form.  There is no difference between you, or any fragment, and Jesus.  The Whole is in the parts.  Remember this and you are restored to Wholeness.  By communing with Me you commune with Papa.  Communing is joining, or re-joining, or becoming again, as One, or Whole. 

Thank You, Beloved; this is massively enlightening.  You explain things so simply they just, suddenly, fall into place, and it is then all so obvious, clear, logical.  It is as if I have then always Known what You reveal. 

You ask and I draw back the veil on your awareness.  You ask when you are ready to remember.  Do this – commune – in remembrance of Me, the Spirit of Truth, the Holy Breath and I will gently, Lovingly, breathe the Living Truth back into your mind. 

¹ See Diary entry dated ‘Late October’ 1997 for details.

² See Pam’s book ‘Simply Being - One Year with Spirit page 246, ‘Week Thirty: Beyond the Wind’

³ Rev. Edwin Hatch, 1878: 

Breathe on me, Breath of God,

Fill me with life anew,

That I may love what thou dost love,

And do what thou wouldst do. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God,

Until my heart is pure;

Until my will is one with thine

To do and to endure. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God,

Till I am wholly thine;

Until this earthly part of me

Glows with thy fire divine. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God,

So shall I never die,

But live with thee the perfect life

Of thine eternity.

A.M. June 5^th, 2010.

“You and I” are, indeed, One.  Allow that merging into one, true, eternal, whole, loving Identity to take place; do not try to force, or even hasten it.  That causes delay — unnecessary delay.  Allowing is accepting; accepting that littleness is not wholeness, not the complete picture.

Holy Spirit, beloved Self, Spirit of Truth: You are Who I really Am.

There is no other.

This realisation has been dawning upon me for some while now.

Go with the thought, the idea; it is drawing you further into the Light of Remembrance.  Be still within it, and allow it.  More details will slip into place as you entertain it peacefully in your mind.

Remember, there is no rush.  Can you hasten that butterfly to alight upon your finger by an act of self willing it so?  Allow it, instead; for ego-willing is an endeavour at control rather than freedom.  That will drive the butterfly away in fear.  Spirit, Truth, Reality Know only freedom.  This is what free will means.  Not on your, ego, persona, limited, restricted, finite, controlling terms, but on equality of oneness, freedom terms.

“You and I” are, indeed, One.  Allow that merging into one, true, eternal, whole, loving Identity to take place; do not try to force, or even hasten it.  That causes delay – unnecessary delay.  Allowing is accepting; accepting that littleness is not wholeness, not the complete picture. 

It is like a child, eager to be at the seaside, trying to make dad go faster in his driving; trying, in his innocence and lack of understanding, to force the journey to be foreshortened, even though dad knows the way, the distance, the need to account for all the obstacles to be dealt with as each one arises on the road.  Dad will get the little one there, safely, but it must be within the conditions that present themselves in order for the journey to be completed safely.

Then the anxieties and stresses will be of none effect, the delays and setbacks minimised, and happiness assured.  So, sit back, leave the driving to the Driver, knowing He knows the Way, and will get you there – to oneness of Identity – perfectly safely, peacefully and joyfully.  There is no pain, no loss, no sacrifice entailed.  Persona-self gradually remembers and accepts ‘Higher Self’ as reality and littleness falls away, loses appeal, no longer sees any advantage in being little, limited, restricted.

Thank You for Being with me every moment. 

(Emphatically) I can never leave you.  My purpose is to remind you to see and accept yourself as your True Self, as I see you.  This purpose will not fail, will move through the opportunity of time to completion in Eternity.  I love you with the Perfect Love of all Papa’s creation.

A.M. June 6^th, 2010. 

Now is the time for the fragmented, deluded Sonship to forget its dreams of sin and guilt, sacrifice and punishment, and turn toward the Light and enter into eternal Peace and Love, rejoicing.   

There is a part of our mind that most of us never use or even have any awareness of.  It can be called our Whole Mind or our Holy Mind.  Jesus was fully aware of, or awake to, or in remembrance of, this Whole or Holy Mind, every moment.  He saw clearly, or truly, the reality of Being; that he was indivisible from God, the universal, eternal, all-Knowing, all-empowered, all-Loving Creator Spirit.  He realised that the Creator Spirit, being  universal, is everywhere, and so it is impossible to be apart, or separate, from Him; that the very Life Force that is our life force – and the life force of every living thing – is the One Life Force that connects all Being and makes us all, everything that is, whole, or holy. 

He saw with vision that is nothing to do with bodily eyes.  This vision is Spiritual Vision, not sensory, ocular sight.  This vision enables all who engage it – for all have it, though in most it is quiescent because they are ignoring it – to see the Truth of all Being, the Truth of Self, the Truth of Eternity.  Most of the fragments of the Sonship of God – who perceive themselves as separate from each other, in a separate or individual body, with a separate, or individual mind and identity – are asleep to the reality of oneness within the One Life Force, or Creator Spirit, with All Its, or His, attributes of Wholeness, or Holiness, or Creation. 

Bodily senses are devised to focus awareness on an illusory, temporal, ever-changing, limited state that is perceived as the physical universe.  All the while that is believed to be reality it is, and remains, ‘reality’ for such believers. This distracts from awareness of the unchanging, radiant, eternal reality of which all are part.  But all that is needed to attune to the wavelength of – or commune with – eternal reality is a shift of focus. True vision is of the reality within and is infinite, limitless, as is the transforming empowerment it brings to all when in tune, or at-one, with it.  

It is by going within, turning the focus from bodily – sensory – perception of outer, temporal consciousness, that awareness of the reality of eternity becomes possible. This is the true Being in which all are indivisibly, forever, one with the All That Is. Sensory perception suggests separation from, or existing outside of, eternity. This is muddled, distorted, upside-down thinking/believing/seeing.  It is an Alice-through-the-looking-glass state of mind, where the without, which is transient, always changing – and which does not really exist – is seen as reality, and the within, which is eternally perfect and unchangeable Love, Peace and Joy, is seen as transient, ephemeral, intangible, unreal. 

Jesus said “Repent, for the Kingdom of God is at hand.”  Repent means turn around 180°. It has nothing to do with sin, guilt, unworthiness, sacrifice, condemnation or punishment. That is made up, mythology, because through the looking glass all is perceived the wrong way round, or upside down.  Brothers are seen as guilty; enemies, instead of perfect, innocent, Loving.  Belief in the guilt of the sin of disobeying God also means belief in a God intent on punishment.  How could such a belief engender other than fear?     

How can a God of Perfect Love be a God of wrath and eternal punishment?   Now is the time for the fragmented, deluded Sonship to forget its dreams of sin and guilt, sacrifice and punishment, and turn toward the Light and enter into eternal Peace and Love, rejoicing.

A.M. June 7^th, 2010. 

You know where your treasure is, and this is where your heart is also.  Steadfast one-pointedness of commitment to reminding yourself will retrain your mind to be there with your heart.

Just at the point of waking I heard Holy Spirit say, multiple times, over and over (He was clearly intent on getting the point across): 

Breathe and allow; breathe and allow; breathe and allow...

Holy Spirit; I invite You into my life, my heart, my mind; to have control over my thinking, so that it is from and according to Higher, True, Christ Mind will, and not the frenetic, fearful, reactionary, convoluted, oscillatory, random, conflicted, nonsensical thoughts of ego, split-off, upside-down mental activity that seems to run amok in my head.

This can only be possible by allowing it to be so, not by resisting.  This requires surrender, acceptance, stepping back, away from the helm.  Envision yourself doing this bodily, for bodies are symbols of ego, of division, of separation from Papa, from Life Eternal, from certainty of the One Identity that you really are.

This means not trying to stop the random thoughts that come in, but allow them, step back from them, observe them, as I do; impassively.  This is possible because I Know they are not real.  How can one engage and wrestle with what is not real; what does not exist?  You, also, know they are not real, because they are from an unreal source; ego.  You made it up.  It is not a creation of Papa, so has no reality; is not who you are, or even a part of who you are.  It seeks reality in your mind only by your acknowledgement of it as real, and thus, your giving it life and meaning. 

But you are safe, secure, innocent, at Home; certain, immortal, indestructible, peaceful, joyful.  Remind yourself of this as often as you feel a shred of doubt or uncertainty.  If that is multiple times a day, or an hour, or even a minute, so be it.  You know the meaning of and the need for steadfast one-pointedness.  You know where your treasure is, and that this is where your heart is also.  Steadfast one-pointedness of commitment to reminding yourself will retrain your mind to be there with your heart.

Then you will be functioning as One.  An invincible, all-empowered Force for Good; for the Kingdom; for dispelling darkness with Light; despair, not just with hope but with certainty; confusion with Truth; fear with Love; forgetfulness with remembrance; blindness with Sight; illusion with Reality; ignorance with Knowledge.

Beloved Holy Spirit, I know that, I feel it, I intuit it.  Thank You for reminding me and giving such wonderful, empowering affirmation.  You are a real battery recharger.  I love You and I love our communing, our joining in oneness. 

A.M. June 12^th 2010 

Envision breathing-in the Light.  You are bathed in the Light; you ARE the Light.  You have denied your Self.  It is now time to accept, allow your Self again. 

Holy Spirit: As you know, Theresa and I have been discussing whether You, as the Holy Breath of God, breathe on us, as the wonderful, inspired hymn¹ requests, or breathe in us, as somehow seems more efficient. 

I breathe on you always, unceasingly.  It is your choice to breathe Me in, inhale Me.  This is acceptance.  As with all Papa’s gifts, they are yours, freely.  It is your choice, as always, whether you accept them unto, or, in this instance, into yourself.  As you know, ‘hale’ means whole, well, strong and healthy.  So, to in-hale the Breath of Life is to take in, to receive unto yourself, wholeness, strength, health, well-being. 

Breathe Me in until you are completely filled and have become fully Identified with Me, just as Jesus/Yeshua did.  Then we are One.  Envision breathing-in the Light.  You are bathed in the Light; you ARE the Light.  You have denied your Self.  It is now time to accept, allow your Self again.  By excluding the Light from your awareness you seem to be in (spiritual) darkness.  This is not actually so.  By breathing in the Holy Breath you breathe in the true and only Life – Eternal Life – and Life and Light are one.  Life and Light are also Perfect Love. 

This you imagine you have also denied yourself, so in the Earth-life consciousness you are bereft of Perfect Love, Which always has inner Peace and Joy, stillness, all-Knowing as integral aspects of Its unbounded Being.  Hence the benefit of breathing and allowing; for once again you restore to yourself your Self, Who Is all of This. 

In a sense, breathing out is not of any great concern because breathing in the Light automatically dispels the darkness you have believed you were in.  But nevertheless you will serve yourself well not to dismiss it as unimportant or irrelevant.  The act of breathing out is, and can be acknowledged, as the departure, the relinquishing, the expelling of belief in the old order, time and place order; confused thinking, and allowing its replacement – as you breathe in – with remembrance of True, Whole, One Self. 

As I prepared to send/post this Diary entry this morning (November 28^th 2012) the Holy Spirit added: 

When you have breathed-in the Holy Breath until you are completely filled with Life anew; until you completely Love what Papa Loves once more; until your heart-mind is completely purified; until the earthly part of you glows with fire divine... then your breathing-out will no longer have any more of the old, ego-order to dispel.  Then will you have only the Holy Breath to breathe out upon the world, in perfect peace, harmony, balance, resonance with Papa.  Just like Jesus². J.  Then, also like Jesus, you will never die, but live in Papa the perfect Life, unto all eternity.  This, Beloved, is the inescapable destiny of all the fragments of the Sonship. 

Meanwhile, and to assist you in this, do remember that... 

...Engaging with fear keeps you trapped in the consciousness of fear because engaging with it makes it real for you.  Observe and allow.  Let it flow over you without responding.  Remain centred in allowing. 

¹  Rev. Edwin Hatch, 1878: 

Breathe on me, Breath of God, / Fill me with life anew,

That I may love what thou dost love, / And do what thou wouldst do. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God, / Until my heart is pure;

Until my will is one with thine / To do and to endure. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God, / Till I am wholly thine;

Until this earthly part of me / Glows with thy fire divine. 

Breathe on me, Breath of God, / So shall I never die,

But live with thee the perfect life / Of thine eternity.

²  See Jn. 20:22

A.M. June 18^th 2010  

As you begin to awaken to the truth of Being, you begin to see and experience the truth, the reality.  The Life that you are is not the body that you have assumed yourself to be.  This is a veil, a covering, to hide the truth from yourself.  The literal truth is that you are the Light.   

“You are the Light of the world.” [Mt. 5:14] Is Jesus telling the truth when he tells you this?  Do you believe him?  What does it mean?  What are you like when you lay aside your body?  It was your choice to not be who or what you are that brought the effect of perceiving yourself as not the Light, but dense, ‘solid’, limited, fragile, divided [e.g. male and female...] mortal bodies.  If we take each of these descriptive terms and think of their opposite, that is what you really are. 

As you begin to awaken to the truth of Being, you begin to see and experience the truth, the reality.  The Life that you are is not the body that you have assumed yourself to be.  This is a veil, a covering, to hide the truth from yourself.  The literal truth is that you are the Light.  Why should you be surprised, fearful, in denial of this reality when Jesus tells you this is what you are?  Because you made a momentary, mad choice, to pretend to be what you are not. 

You – all the fragmented Sonship – have now seen a great Light.  This Light took form as a body, which you know as Jesus, Yeshua, in order to bring you the message – the reminder – from your Home, Papa, that you are the Light.  Without a body, a communication mechanism, you could not have perceived, had awareness of him.  But that messenger was not a body and neither are you.  It is your choice as to what you perceive yourself to be.   

True vision will show you that you are not a body, but the Light.  Just as he told you in the long ago.  This Light is far brighter than the sun and shines forever.  How could it not be so when you are created in the likeness of the Father Creator?  For it not to be so [impossible] you would have to believe, and by believing, make ‘real’ to your perception, that Papa is not so.

A.M. June 23^rd 2010 

The Voice for Papa is the Voice, speaking to the mind of ‘Christ Self’, to re-mind Him of the reality of His true Being – while he perceives himself in the place of forgetfulness – because He chose to forget His Self. 

Dear Holy Spirit; If I am Papa’s beloved Son, ‘Christ’, should I be thinking in terms of being ‘Christ-Self’?  And if so, I am not sure how Self can be/is also the Spirit of Truth – the Holy Spirit – which is Who You, the Voice for God, are. 

This is not a concept of ‘either/or’ for pB to wrestle with in intellectual struggle, striving or contortion.  This is an arena in which ego-thinking mind wallows, seeking not Truth, or Knowledge, but information; this is duality consciousness instead of, as a substitute for, the only reality: Oneness. 

The Spirit of Truth, Holy Spirit, the Holy Breath is the Voice for God, Papa; is the reminder for you of Who you Are.  This Voice commun(icat)ion  comes through your right mind, within you.  Papa’s Son – Who is One, Christ, expressing in limitation, fragmented, in the unreality of time and place – chose a moment of forgetfulness of the reality of Oneness, thus forgetting His Self.

The Voice for Papa is the Voice, speaking to the Mind of ‘Christ Self’, to re-mind Him of the reality of His true Being – while he perceives himself to be in the place of forgetfulness – because He chose to forget His Self.  This sufficeth pB for the present.  Greater revelation and understanding of reality shall come to you as your trust grows.  That is all that matters.  It is not serviceable to get bogged-down in detail; let the Spirit of Truth bring clarity through simplifying the Truth by shining Its Light into your mind.  This dispels imagined convolutions and chicanes caused by shadows when they do not exist. 

Remember, ‘breathe and allow’.  All shall be revealed in the season of readiness, through FTOC.

A.M. July 2^nd 2010  

There are two worlds: the ego world of conflict, guilt, fear, grievance, condemnation, hatred… and the Holy Spirit’s world of gentleness, peace, Love, compassion, kindness, forgiveness, truth, giving…  

I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you; That ye may be the children of your Father which is in heaven (Mt. 5:44-45)  

Right along with Jesus! 

P.M. July 8^th 2010 

The second measure of meal saw Jesus as the Christ, ‘the one and only’ Son of God.  But he has presided over the leavening of that measure, and now, as we progress into the third measure and its leavening, we begin to see the result of the leavening of the second measure: that we are all one with him in Christ, Papa’s one, beloved Son. 

Beloved, it is because I Love You, and I Love the sense of upliftment, wellbeing it instils in me that I desire to be aware of, one with, You, my true Self, every moment.    

Have we a bit of role-reversal going on here? 

Alleluia! 

A.M. July 9^th 2010 

Beloved Holy Spirit-Self, I bless You for your wonderful Help in simplifying my understanding of Being.  Knowing You are with me – within my mind – every moment, indivisibly, is so completely reassuring.  Truly, You are the Comforter, when ego’s script is written to destroy our acceptance of our Self and literally, leave us for dead. 

The great thing about recognising Truth is that the illusion that obscured it can be released. 

A.M. July 12^th 2010 

A.M. July 20^th 2010 

Time and place seem completely real to our bodily senses, which are devised for perceiving phenomena at that vibration; so they are our witnesses to illusion, and only to illusion.  They cannot, therefore, bear witness to reality.  However, our mind, which is not a bodily sense, or of the body, is capable of awareness of reality, which is not of time and place.  This is described as abstract because it is not represented by any time and place, or concrete, manifestation. 

A.M. July 29^th 2010 

Jesus referred to himself as ‘the son of man’ because he was, along with the rest of us – symbolically speaking – ‘a son of Abraham’, who, though he was beginning to awaken to God-awareness, was still confused about his relationship to, the Sonship of, God.  This is exemplified by his perception that God wanted him to sacrifice his only son (Isaac) by his wife, Sarah. (Gen. 22.) 

A.M. August 14^th 2010 

*NTI is The Holy Spirit’s Interpretation of the New Testament, copyright Regina Dawn Akers 2008.  The above quote is from page 313: ‘2 Corinthians, chapter 5’.

A.M. August 19^th 2010 

When you return judgement and attack with forgiveness and blessings of Peace and Love, so is the downward, destructive spiral broken, and ascent toward the Light is engendered in its place, until all the shadows of grievance and judgement are shone away by the Light. 

It is easy to observe that in time and place history repeats itself. 

This is because the misperceiving mind of humanity keeps reflecting back to itself that which it keeps projecting out.  All the while it keeps projecting out thoughts of guilt, judgement, grievance, fear and conflict, so will it keep reflecting back.  The saying ‘What goes around comes around’ is literally true. 

When thoughts of forgiveness, Love, Peace, Joy and blessing are extended to your brothers, that, of a certainty beyond all doubt, is what will, inevitably, be reflected back to you, amplified each time it comes around.  This is because blessings of forgiveness, Love, Peace and Joy can but increase with the giving.  This is the nature of Creation, for It is of Papa, the Creator Spirit, Who is forever increasing through the Creation process. 

When you realign yourself with Him you become aware of your true Self, the Christ, who is created – by extension, by increase – in the likeness of the Father Creator.  If you return judgement, grievance, condemnation and attack like for like, so is the condition continued, spiralling toward destruction.  Such is the power of the mind of the Son of God to make illusions seem real. 

Yet, when you return judgement and attack with forgiveness and blessings of Peace and Love, steadfastly refusing to continue the downward, destructive spiral, so is it broken, and an upward ascent toward the Light of eternal reality – Heaven, your true and only Home – is engendered in its place, growing and increasing at each and every blessing, until all the shadows of grievance and judgement are shone away by the Light. 

It does not matter how long the effects of ending the cycle seem to take outwardly, for the actual end is always immediate, according to the desire.  Time is an illusion, so is irrelevant; a deception, best ignored because giving it your attention makes it your reality.  Rather, remember that ‘only infinite patience produces immediate effects’. (ACIM, T-5.VI.12:1). 

When the moment is right, according to the all-Knowing, all-empowered, all-beneficent Holy Self, that which you have expressed to end the cycle will be reflected back to you from your brother.  Broken relationships will be healed, restored to wholeness, oneness in Christ, the Son of the Father Creator.

A.M. August 30^th 2010 

The illusion of time and place seems to be reality to the children of Earth-mind consciousness because they value it.  When they arrive at the place where nothing of time and place holds any value for them, they are Awake to the Glory and grandeur of What they really are.   

The illusion of time and place seems to be reality to the children of Earth-mind consciousness because they value it.  When they arrive at the place where nothing of time and place holds any value for them, they are Awake to the Glory and grandeur of What they really are.  They are the Light because they all are Papa’s Son.  Papa is the Source of Light and He created His Son in His own likeness. 

As well you know, this Light, the Light, is infinite; eternal.  It is nothing to do with nuclear fusion in solar bodies, all of which are finite; temporal; without.  The Light that you all are shines, inextinguishably, within, where lies reality.  It cannot shine in the without because It is real and the without is unreal.  For It to shine in the without would make the Light unreal, or part of the illusion; bringing truth to illusion, which you know is impossible.   

Seek, therefore, within for the Light that you are, for only there is It to be found.  Just as Jesus told you two thousand years ago.J.  Now is the moment, the leavening of the third measure of meal, by which ALL is leavened so that all might believe it, and believing, shall see It.  Then shall it become reality for all the self-limiting fragments, that all become as one again.

A.M. September 3^rd 2010

Peace is available only from within the Now.  Peace cannot exist in time because time is unreal and Peace, as a quality of Love, is real.  Now and time are mutually exclusive, as are peace and fear.  Time is the consciousness of fear.   

Truth is NOW; illusions are of linear time.  Living in awareness of, allowing, accepting surrendering ego-controlled resistance enables it to become, again, our eternal truth and the Holy Instant becomes our reality because we have attuned our mind to its frequency instead of time and place. 

Time is the ultimate illusion, or unreality, and is the symbol of belief in separation from truth, from the eternal Now.  Peace is available only from within the Now.  Peace cannot exist in time because time is unreal and Peace, as a quality of Love, is real.  Now and time are mutually exclusive, as are peace and fear.  Time is the consciousness of fear.  It is possible to think, speak and write about the holy instant and inner peace indefinitely, but they can only become reality by desiring them above all things, committing to them absolutely, and surrendering all else into the trustworthiness of the Spirit of Truth. 

The world is a manifestation of time.  It is ‘place’, and goes inextricably with time.   

In the holy instant of experiencing eternal reality, Truth and Self become One.  This is the Being of One-Self that is the ‘real-isation’ of Who One really Is, which is the all-inclusive Oneness that is God.  Truth is not just of eternity; it is eternity, which is Now.  Jesus said he was the Truth (and the Way and the Life) along with all who yet perceive themselves as separate from Truth, but are of eternity because all are Papa’s Son, just like Him. 

Truth and Knowing are hand-in-glove.  Jesus said that abiding by his teaching the Truth is known, and by living it the imprisoned are made free (Jn. 8:31,32).  By choosing, being willing, to Know the truth, the sight is unveiled, revealing the freedom that has always been there for all to see.  This Knowing is the truth, for that is all there is to Know.  It does not require learning, researching, testing, proving, acquiring; for it is already within all, not ‘out there’.  It simply requires the choice, above all, to remember it.

A.M. September 12^th 2010 

History repeats itself because it has not been forgiven by the fractured mind that keeps reviewing it, trying to change it, trying to make it better.  But what is nothing cannot be made better; it can but be forgiven, along with the mind that made it up. 

If we put our faith in what is changeable – time and place – what we will experience is change: birth and death.  If we put our faith in the perfect, unchangeable reality that is God, Heaven, Eternity, that is what we will experience. 

It is but a releasing, a relinquishing, a letting go of the dream, because the dream is the past; a terrible nightmare of separation, in which Papa’s Son experienced that which is not – and never can be – as that which is. 

Yet it is past, over, gone.  Papa is Calling His son Home and the only way he can hear His Call is to gladly, voluntarily relinquish his attachment to the past.  It does not seem to be the past because the separated mind is re-visiting, reliving what has already gone.  History repeats itself because it has not been forgiven by the fractured mind that keeps reviewing it, trying to change it, trying to make it better.  But what is nothing cannot be made better; it can but be forgiven, along with the mind that made it up.  

Thus is that mind released from the past and free to return to the Present, the Holy Instant, the Eternal Now.

A.M. September 30^th 2010 

If we are separate from God we must manifest, or portray, attributes that are opposed to the attributes of God.  For if we express a quality that is an attribute of God, then we must be at one with Him – at least in respect of that quality.  For example if we perform an act – or simply have an attitude – of kindness toward a brother, we are at one with God within that context (And the King shall answer and say unto them, Verily I say unto you, Inasmuch as ye have done it unto one of the least of these my brethren, ye have done it unto me. Mt. 25:40) because God is perfect Love, and kindness is an aspect, or attribute of Love.  

A.M. October 17^th 2010

Orthodox Christians believe Jesus is our saviour.  And so he is.  But that is an incomplete perception.  He points the way to our salvation by making clear that not only is he our saviour but that we are our brother’s saviour as he is ours also.  In other words, we must all be participant in salvation, along with Jesus.  This is because we are all One – along with him – appearing, illusorily, as many.  We are not really many.  This is a false perception, brought about by a false belief.  It is impossible to be separate from Papa, or from our Self.

A.M. October 24^th 2010

Full or complete enlightenment or Awakening is the result of healing the split mind by the Holy Spirit, Who dwells in the higher part of our mind, and is our unbreakable connection to Papa. 

William Tyndale (1494-1536) has been inspiring me with enlightened interpretations of Bible scriptures (see Diary of a Christ Communicant entry dated January 2^nd 1994 for details).  Now, suddenly, he brings this further understanding: 

A.M. November 12^th 2010